NEVER GIVE UP

I guess it’s over.

2011-04-28T11:42:00.000+07:00

I guess it’s over.

2009-06-13T13:09:00.001+07:00

2007-12-03T23:42:00.000+07:00

My Best Friend Ever

2007-09-22T23:03:00.000+07:00

2007-09-19T19:44:00.000+07:00

NICE FILM

2007-09-18T20:16:00.000+07:00

<------This one reminds me not to be conceited. Coz i am... or perhaps, i was..... :)

2007-09-17T22:45:00.000+07:00

RAPTURE
Are you ready for it?

2007-09-16T22:32:00.000+07:00

Here I am

Drought so severe
I can't help it anymore

So I pray my God
for your healing touch
and I pray that You flood me
with Your grace and mercies
Your generous love
Amazing love
Eternal faithfulness
God of glory
I'm thirsty Lord,
flood me with Your joy.

2007-09-16T19:11:00.000+07:00

Scary stories naman. Just last year when we were still residing at Ninong Osmundo Street in BF Caloocan, we had scary experiences (well, scary for some but i was not scared anyway). When I was young, I used to watch the Undas episodes of Magandang gabi Bayan and nakakatakot talaga stories and how they make the extras look so scary. Asteeg ang makeup and effects, in fairness. haha. Yung mga stories about white ladies, pugot na ulo and stuff... but now, kahit buksan ko ang cabinet ko or maiwan ako sa kuwarto mag-isa, magpakita man ang isang white lady, hindi talaga ako natatakot. Well, siguro kung makakakita ako ng pugot na ulo, kilabutan pa ako. Pero kasi, i guess this is the difference when you know what to do. You just cast them out in Jesus' mightiest name and they'll flee agad. For readers who are not familiar about this, demons and bad spirits tremble in the name of Jesus. It's written in the Bible. So back to Ninong Osmundo. One night, sa kuwarto ni mama, mga 3am siguro, pumasok raw ako sa room tapos lumabas din pero di sinara ang pinto. Edi siempre, nainis si mama at pinuntahan ako sa room ko and she found me sleeping.... mahimbing ang pagkakatulog ko. So who went to her room? hahahahahaha. Well, si papa rin may nakikitang babae sa isang abandoned house sa likod ng bahay namin. Scary na ba.... well... natatawa lang ako pag nakakabasa. Hindi talaga ako natatakot when I hear stories about this. Anyway....

2007-09-16T00:35:00.000+07:00

Mousing all night............. rest aa, rest! haha

2007-08-30T00:42:00.001+07:00

SIGAW NG PUSO

Hindi ko maintindihan
Kayraming bagay ang nais kong itanong
Alam kong kaya mong sagutin

Hindi matahimik at makahimlay
Ang aking isip at damdamin
Itong aking puso, hanap ay ikaw

Koro:
O Diyos, ikaw ang laging hanap
Lungkot ang bumabalot
Sa tuwing ako’y nalalayo sa Iyo
O Diyos, ang puso’y nalulumbay
Hanap-hanap ang pagkalinga mo
Panginoon, ito’ng sigaw ng aking puso

Koda:
Panginoong Jesus
Ang bawat paghinga
At pagpintig ng puso ko
Nagmula lamang sa’Yo
Ikaw ang may likha
Ikaw ang lumalang
Ikaw ang nararapat na sundin

2007-08-30T00:40:00.000+07:00

His Glory

A million miles is not enough to reach your glory Lord.
A multitude of words is not sufficient to proclaim Your greatness.
A thousand melodies of heart-filled worship I give
to the King and Lord of glory.
The magnitude of His greatness extends to infinite awe.
No words can perfectly describe Him.
Lord, I am in awe of you.

August 2006
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Kaibigan at Kaibigan

mahirap mahulog sa isang kaibigan lalo pa't di mo mapigilang malimutan siya..
na sa tuwing nandyan siya, parehong ligaya at lungkot ang iyong nadarama..
na sa tuwing nandyan siya, laging nakakpanghinayang ang pagkakataong mahagkan mo siya, di na bilang kaibigan kundi KA-ibigan. Pero kung man talaga mangyari yun, kahit paano.. KAIBIGAN pa rin. Hindi naman nagbago ang spelling. Siguro di niya mabago ang feeling.

August 2006
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The Creator

The earth resounds with praise.
The heavens sing Your majesty.
The waters roar and shout Your great and awesome power.
All of creation shall sing praises and shall worship the Creator of all the universe.
Thunders and lightnings shall sound and flash forth, the sun and stars shall bow down,
and Your people will declare that You are God!
From everlasting to everlasting, You are God!
Hallelujah! Hallelujah!

September 6, 2006
8:53am
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Larawan at Pagkakaibigan

Lumilipas ang mga larawan subalit ang mga alaala ay hindi magmamaliw.
Parang pagkakaibigan, naikukulong ang bawat ngiti sa kuwadro ng larawan
pero darating ang panahon na mawawala sila sa tabi mo.

Kanya-kanyang buhay at mga pangarap

Bagong kaibigan at kahalakhakan

Itatabi ko ang mga larawan.
Maaaring kumupas din ang mga iyon
pero ang mga alaala ng ating pagkakaibigan,
mananatili sa akin magpakailanman.

Ang Diyos ang nagtakda ng ating pagkakaibigan.
Siya rin ang tanging nakababatid ng panahon ng paglisan.

Pero ngumiti ka aking kaibigan, malinaw pa ang ating mga larawan.

December 2006
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Parola

Alam ko na ang gusto kong gawin.

Umakyat sa parola, pagmasadan ang kalawakan ng langit kung saan inuugoy ng hangin ang mga ulap; at maaliw sa pakikipaglaro ng habagat sa dagat...lakas ng hangin nun!
Tapos tatalon ako mula sa napakataas na parola pero di ako mahuhulog dahil sasaluhin ako't tuturuang lumipad ng Dakilang Lumikha at sasamahan Niya akong liparin ang kalawakan ng buhay.

Gusto ko na lumipad. Gusto mo sumama?

Tugon ni Sarah:

Hindi.
Mas gusto kong manatiling nakatapak ang aking mga paa sa lupa.
Mas gusto kong nararamdaman ng aking mga paa ang masaganang tubo ng luntiang damo. Lalo na kung umaga, mamasa-masa ang sariwang hamog sa mga damo na dulot ng bagong umaga na biyaya ng Lumikha!

Tugon ni Aa:

Siya nga?
Kung gayon ay makikisaya muna ako sa'yo sa luntiang paligid at takbuhin ang mga libis ng buhay. Tiyak na kapiling din natin ang Lumikha sapagkat di naman Siya lumayo kahit minsan.

Pero lilipad din ako pagkatapos.

Tugon ni Sarah:

Sige. Pagsapit ng umaga'y tatakbuhin natin ang parang. Mamimitas ng mga prutas at bulaklak. Palilipasin ang maghapon na puno ng galak.
Pagdating ng hapon, ikaw'y ihahatid sa pinakamataas na pook na maaabot ng ating paglalakad. Mula doon, ikaw ay muling lilipad. Sa iyong paglipad, sasabayan na lamang kita ng tingin kasama ang aking naisin na maabot mo ang iyong hangarin.
Katulad ng iyong sinabi, ang Lumikha ay ating kapiling saan mang dako tayo makarating.

Tugon ni Asta:

Nalulula ako.

Masasabayan mo kaya ako?
Sa bawat yabag ng aking puso, katumbas nito'y pintig ng aking mga ugat.
Halika...abutin mo ang kaing mga palad.

(paumanhin sa aking pamamatnugot)
December 27, 2006
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Bikeride

I want to bikeride. Go the plains and just feel the gentle breeze. Be relaxed by the sweet scent of the air. Then I'll go faster and jump off from my bike and throw myself to the rich sunflower garden and daffodils soft! Then I'll look up to the sky and watch as clouds go by...then the rain falls. I'll jump and dance with the rain! Run the slope and go to the hills and climb the highest mountain. And I'll talk to my Creator.

I am in awe of You.

From there, I will jump to the vast blue sea and explore the ocean with its colors neon and bright! Then I will soar high to the clouds, ride on it and wake up.

I'm back.

Asta replies:
I will skid hard and jump towards the moon where I will float as if God is lulling me and then we will have ice cream so sweet and cold at Saturn's rings.

Sarah replies:
Aren't you going to exhaust yourself? Of all the things you wanted to do, one thing you forgot is to rest and savor the simple things around you. Yes, you want to enjoy the sweet scent of the air and the gentle breeze it brings; the lush green lands with soft daffodils growing; the vast blue sea and azure sky above. But what about taking some rest? You also need rest for you to enjoy another day's adventure.

(pardon my editing)
December 28,2006
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Musikabanggi!

Mainam!
Kaysarap pakinggan
ang himig ng hangin
awitan ng mga kuliglig
kiskis ng mga dahon
koro ng mga insekto ng banggi
at huni ng mga ibon.
Isama mo pa ang bulong ng hangin
at damhin ang simoy nito.
Pakinggan mo ang musika ng kalikasan
na inoorkestra ng Dakilang Lumikha.
Kay-inam!

December 28, 2006
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The Demander

How many times have I been taken for granted? Just though of, talked with and laughed with when they need me. Yes, I care for them. But did they even care to ask me what I need, what I feel, or if I'm okay or did bother to say hi?

I may seem fine.
I may look okay.
But I'm not.
I am a simple guy longing for your sincere attention.

Nasasaktan din ako. Naghahanap din ako ng makikinig sa akin.

December 29,2006
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Precious Tears
Para sa Isang kaibigang
hindi nahihirapang ilabas ang kanyang mga luha

I know someone
His tears could flow like a river
Could flow like a melting candle
He could also fill a jar of his precious tears
But I admire his sensitivity, soft heart and easy tears
I cant' cry easily like him.
I cant feel his sadness, hurt and pain
But I'm sure those tears have a spring
from where they overflow.
Share me tears, share me spring
of overflowing emotions
But I know,
I'll learn to let them out and flow too..
Like a stream...
a stream of precious tears
But not forever.
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Luha at Ulan
Kung ang ulan ay luha
At bawat patak nito'y emosyong nag-umapaw
Mula sa ulap ng lumbay...
Sana'y bumuhos pa
at bahain ang aking mga palad na naghihintay
na mahagkan ang luhang
kaytagal niyang hinintay
Bumuhos ka pa hanggang malimot ko
ang hapis ng kahapon
at ang lumbay ng kasalukuyan.
Lunurin mo ako at lasingin sa ligaya ng pagbuhos mo
Habang nililisan ng ulan ang mabigat na ulap
ng lungkot, ng hapis, ng lumbay.

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Ang Umibig
May mga raw na nalulunod ka sa lumbay.
May mga araw na gusto mo umiyak na parang ilog
May mga sandaling gusto mo suyang mahagkan
pero di mo magawa.
Pero mas maigi nang umasa kesa walang gawin.
Ang umibig, matamis at masakit kung minsan.
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Like the Rain
Like the rain,
I just wish that my tears
would fall as well
Because just like the rain
when not poured out,
emotions might swell too
and pour its strongest.
Sana ang luha ko
bumuhos gaya ng ulan
tapos ok na.
May araw naman
pagkatapos ng malakas na sigwa
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Let Me Fly with You

If only I could fly… leave this town and cry
Leaving everything for a while
I don’t want to spend my time crying desperately
As if I’m losing everything I have
As if I’m losing myself, my identity
I’m even tired of walking this long road
My feet start to hurt and my heart is crying so hard
My mind wants to rest…
So fly me high to the sky
Let me soar like the eagle
Let me ride the clouds so light
And embrace the radiance of Your light.
I wanna fly (soar high)
I wanna fly (so light)
Let me fly with You.
My eyes are overflowing with tears
Like rivers in a scorching zone
I wanna dream like I can do everything
But I know its impossible if only by myself, that’s true
I can do little but I know I can do everything with You.
So I come to You and talk to You
Crying desperately and opening up my heart
Lifting up my concerns..
Lord, please draw out all these pain and sorrow
All the heartaches inside
God, You are my hope.
God, You are my only hope

2007-08-30T00:32:00.000+07:00

PARANG ROTONDA, PAIKOT-IKOT
Isang Pagbasa sa Rotonda
Aaron G. Laylo

Parang rotonda, paikot-ikot. Ang araw at gabi, nagpapalitan, umuulit, paikot-ikot. Ang mga buhay ng tao sa mga sulok at eskinita ng Rotonda, paikot-ikot. Ika nga ng isang karakter sa pelikula, pare-pareho lang. Subalit sa bawat pag-ikot, sadya nga bang pare-pareho lang na nalulunod sa dagat ng mga suliranin ang mga karakter sa pelikula? Sa pag-ikot ng kanilang mga pakikipagtunggali sa isang malaking gilingan ng populasyon, nagkakatugma ang kanilang mga karanasan pero sa iba't ibang paraan. Sa isang bahagi ng maalikabok, maingay at masukal na gubat ng kalunsuran, samu't saring karakter ang may tanikalang ugnayan, pare-parehong naghahanap ng paraan para takasan ang mga suliranin nila.
Isang desperadong manunulat, nakilala ang isang puta na nais tulungan ang kapatid na umahon sa pagkakasadlak sa kahirapan, isang dating pulis na nais maghiganti, isang dalagitang gala at ligaw sa buhay, at isang binatang puno ng pagtitimpi sa loob para sa kanyang ama: mga karakter na nagkaugnay-ugnay ang istorya at pinagpasapasahan ang sanglibong pisong bill na may butas
Sa bawat karakter, nailahad ni Bryant ang maraming mukha ng kahirapan at tunggalian sa lipunan subalit sa isang pader lamang. Hindi ito tumawid sa kawalan ng balanse sa antas ng lipunang kinabibilangan. Inilahad sa pelikula ang masukal na mundo ng Rotonda, larawan ng mausok, maingay, magulo, at abalang bahagi ng lipunang Pilipino na tila araw-araw hinaharap ang suliranin ng kahirapan. Kung minsan pa, hindi maharap kundi tinatakasan o kaya'y idinaraan ng tao ang paglaban sa problema sa pamamagitan ng paghihiganti na sa huli'y siya rin ang talunan. Ito marahil ay bunga ng dambuhala at lalong lumalaki pang mga suliranin sa lipunan. Dahil dito, ang lipunan ay higit na nagiging komplikado. Sa una pa lang naman, talagang komplikado na ang lipunan. Ito ay sanga-sanga, ugnay-ugnay at lagi't laging may tunggalian. Sapagkat hindi hinaharap ang tunay na sanhi ng kahirapan at poot. At sakaling patuloy nilang tanggihan ang kasagutan, tulad ng sa pelikula, sila ay lalamunin ng kamatayan.
Isang kritisismo, tulad ng maraming indie films sa Pilipinas, ang Rotonda ay madilim (pisikal na presentasyon) at may masalimuot na istorya. Sa aking palagay, hindi naman dahilan ang kawalan ng budget para magkaganito ang presentasyon ng pelikula sa aspeto ng pisikal na anyo. May mga indie film din namang puno ng liwanag ang bawat eksena bagamat naihahayag ang realidad sa lipunan. Kindi lahat ng realidad sa lipunan ay pangit at madilim. May liwanag ding nakatago sa bawat sulok ng eskinita.
Kailangan ba talagang ipakita ang pumping scene? Para saan pa? Maaring ipakita ang hinagpis at panandaliang pagtakas sa suliranin sa ibang paraan. Naiintindihan kong ang indie fils ay arts film. Pero hindi malaking ambag ang isang eksenang hindi makadaragdarag ng malaking kabuluhan at kintal para sa daloy ng istorya.
Bakit lahat yata ng pulis sa pelikula ay masama ang karakter? Si Dimalanta na nagmolestiya sa kapatid ni Raquel at bumili ng baril sa isang pulis na nangmolestiya rin sa isang nahuling may ipinagbabawal na gamot, gayundin ang ama ni Chito na abusado at diktador. Lahat sila'y inilarawan sa pelikula bilang mga taong ginagamit ang lakas sa maling paraan. Pero bakit puro pulis?
Sa kabilang banda, mainam na ginamit na larawan at tulay ang karakter ng pulubing wala sa katinuan. Larawan ito sapagkat siya ay larawan ng kahirapan: madumi at puno ng kalituhan. Tulay siya dahil naipaparating nito sa manonood ang ilang mahahalagang aspeto sa ilan ding karakter. Halimbawa, ang runaway girl na 'patapon' ay nandidiri sa isang pulubing wala sa katinuan. Kung tutuusi'y tulad din siya ng huli, 'wala sa tamang katinuan.' Ligaw. Lito. Hindi matino. Isa pang halimbawa ay nang nakasadlak na sa basura si Dima, niyakap ito ng pulubi. Sa eksenang ito, pareho silang nagmistulang 'nabasura' ang buhay. Ang tingin sa kanila'y panggulo lamang sa namamayaning pamamayagpag ng naghaharing-uri. Parang pulubing itinaboy na parang basura. Pare-pareho sila. Basura nga ba sila o nabasura, gaya ng maraming hindi naabot na bahagi ng lipunan? Sana huwag silang tratuhing basura ng lipunan. Sayang ang buhay nila.
Paikot-ikot, parang rotonda. Maingay, magulo, masukal, (mabaho), mausok, parang Rotonda. Mga nilalang na may buhay, paikot-ikot. Mga mamamayan ng lipunan, ugnay-ugnay. Ang indibidwal, may opsyong piliin ang makabuluhang buhay sa ikot ng buhay o idulas ang sarili sa basura, kawalan at kamatayan.

2007-07-03T22:27:00.000+07:00

No Title
Ayan! Teka lang, masarap mag-Tagalog dahil ito naman talaga ang wika ng aking lahi. Ganun? haha. Anyway, I'm trying to pamper myself through blogging. Naghilamos na ako and it's also one of many ways through which I can pamper myself. Siempre when you see yourself pogi, parang natuwa ka nun di ba? haha. Thank God at nadagdagan ako ng student na tuturuan. Yey!!! I'd like to write an article sana about traffic congestion in Metro Manila especially in those places where roads were built so narrow in such a way that each direction or bound has only one lane. Considering the culture of paunahan at kapalan ng mukha by many Filipinos, it adds all the more to the siksikan, overtaking to the max, pausukan ng tambucho and deadlock traffic congestion in the Metropolis. Anyway, marami pa sana ako sasabihin kaso I know that I have to sleep early tonight, actually earlier dapat than the usual. Ciao!

2007-07-02T13:34:00.000+07:00

I just decided to drop by my blog though I have nothing important to write. I just feel so sad, confused and just a mix of feelings. Should I pursue my career in foreign service or sway to affiliate myself in any international organzination in the near future? Studying MIS demands too much rigour. God, I need Your help!

I'm leaving now. Have to go to Greenhills, part-time work. And I think browsing through my readings would be a nice thing to do while on the bus. The readings are about Human Security, Securitization of some global issues. I'll update you. Bye for now! Makleleate na ako.

2007-07-02T00:00:00.000+07:00

Because of my aim of giving my old blog site a new look, nawala yung dating chatbox na maraming messages at yung mga links din. But ganun talaga, when you give, minsan may kailangang masacrifice... hala, bat biglang lulamim? haha. anyway, ito yung mga talagang active accounts ko:

To Journey
Passer-by
From Here to Eternity

2007-04-24T20:21:00.000+07:00

hi! I will not be using this blogsite anymore. Multiply's better. :) check me here: www.aaronlaylo.multiply.com add me there! thanks! God bless!

2006-10-13T00:25:00.000+07:00

Oh, I Want To Know You More - Just the Time

Just the time I think I'm at peace with the world that's mine,
I feel at ease, I feel at home, and I know I'm not alone.
Then in my rest, there comes a test that shakes me 'til again I know
That what I had is not enough, and again I've got to grow.
Lord, I want to know You more
Deep within my heart I want to know You
Oh, I want to know You.
And I would give my final breath
To know You in Your death and resurrection,
Lord, I want to know You more,
Lord, I want to know You more.
The full supply I find as I move closer to the heart of God,
To strengthen me, to nourish me, and to fill my mind with Him.
I've truly grown, but even so my hunger hasn't gone away
Still I long, still I thirst, to know Him more each day.

2006-09-21T23:37:00.000+07:00

So I throw my life upon all that you are coz I know You gave it all for me. When all else fails, my soul will dance with You where the love lasts forever.

Sept. 22, 12:37 am
Have I changed? I am serious.
The growth of a man is through his personal relationship with God, his fellowship with brothers and sisters, acquiantances and friendship with men and observation and participation on and with the society. For the past almost 20 years of my life, I have found myself a person developed through time, a person who once was lost but now is found (I had ups and downs, struggles), searched and found the way. My Shepherd has never left me alone. There were times when I felt so alone, but I would realize that God is still there just waiting for me to call. I feel so good and overwhelmed just to think that my Creator had already prepared His wonderful plans for me. He loved for who I am and loves me and will always love me.
There are still times when I feel so alone. Sometimes, I would prefer to isolate myself and minsan din, I become too melancholic to the point that I drown myself to thinking til I sleep. I try to express through music or painting, these are gifts God gave me to enjoy and to share. I use them as channels of my emotions to express what I want to say and to show what i feel. Earlier, we went to Yellowcab at Katipunan. Shiela, Revin, Precee, Lester, Petot, JD, Nuja and Krischa were there. Its just now that I enjoy company of friends and fellows but there still remains inside of me a boy crying and teary-eyed searching for real friendship and care. I want to express myself but I lack some stuff. Madalas, I am too quiet while people are in cheers and laughs and jokes.. minsan parang kinikilala ko sarili ko. I do believe that God wants me to discover more of who I really am.. my emotions, my feelings, my attitude, my perception on things etc... I still feel sad at most times. Sometimes, I feel that I don't get the attention from people I consider friends. But why should I look for it, it would come naturally if they consider me a friend too. It just hurts me sometimes that people dont appreciate my care for them. I am not referrring in particular the above mentioned people. I have other friends and this applies to them too. But when everything fails, God is still there. I want to cry now. I want to cry. Shoulder please... But when no one comes, I know God is still by my side.

Sept.19.2006
Masaya lang ako
Im happy today. though it has been a busy one, well, with God...I was able to manage it all! yahoo!!!!! Por la manana, fue a la Civil Service Commission for the interview. we still have to come back tomorrow but we'll be having a pictorial naman sa UP Journalism Club. Owel. Ok. Hmm... yahoooo! wala kaming class sa Bio on Friday! after Bio kanina, punta ako sa As may inayos lang. Tapos punta CAsAA bili ng food. naku, 2 rice ko kailangan ko kasi tumaba taba at maging healthy looking. Tapos tambayan. hmm... tapos lakad kami ni Jeremy hanggang sa NCPAg layo nun ah! Tapos balik kami sa tambayan ni Jeri, walang tao, maya maya andun na si Mai tapos dumating din sina Revin and Shi. Tapos nung paalis na kami, nakita namin Liah. So sabay sabay na kami umalis nina apat. nauna na sina Rev and Shi kasi. Tapos si Mai, iba ang way. So sa SM north kaming tatlo. Yey, binili ako ni mama ng ma-tzang. Nakapagpaint na rin ako this week saya!!!!!!! hehe. kaso di ko mapopost dito eh. tingnan mo na lang sa site na ito: http://aaronlaylo.blogspot.com/ ayan nandyan. Woaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!! swimmming na lang. Sa saturday sana kaso may audition at excited ako sa audition! kaya ayun... God is good all the time!!!! :)

sept.13,2006
whats a "best friend"?
i had a "best friend" when i was in high school. however, i dunno if it was really a relationship that i considered best... i think it was not coz i didnt enjoy it. Friends, i am honest... my friends know it. Kaya sinsasabi kong di ko naramdamang best friend ko siya. She was nice as a friend. I think making a label "best friend" does not modify it as one that is really best. For a friendship to be considered best, I believe u have to be open to each other and you are comfortable to share your thoughts and siempre, enjoy ka pag kasama mo. I have some few really good friends. To be honest, although some may attest to this, I do phave circles of friends. And i tell these people if they're part of my inner circle. But does this mean that im choosy? come on friend, you know naman din na may mga taong talagang matatawag mong friend at yung iba acquiantances lang. Ilan lang ang mga taong nasasbaihan ko ng mga inner thoughts ko pati problem. And i choose them. Kilala ninyo kung sino kayo and you know what????!!!! i really thank God for putting you in my life at the very right moment... Indeed, He makes all things beautiful in His time. My life has been beautiful because you are part of it. Actually lahat ng mga taong dumaraan sa buhay ko ay binibigyan ko ng pagpapahalaga sa anumang paraan. Pero may mga taong iba ang dating sa buhay mo... at gusto mo magtagal ang pagkakaibigan ninyo. I dont want to lose these people. Kung nasabihan kita ng sikreto ko o sobrang komportable akong kausap ka, isa ka sa mga yun. kilala n'yo naman kung sino kayo. Ayoko magbigay ng label ng best friends na tayo pero sa puso ko isa ka sa mga best na kaibigan. Sa ngayon, dumarami ang best friends... notice the word in its context. Why is that? Babae ang naging best friend ko? dahil siguro kami ang nagpapalitan ng mga opinyon pagdating sa opposite stuff. Bakit kaya madalas ganun? Hoy! kilala mo naman kung sino ka eh hehe...May isa akong brother na tinuturing kong "best friend." Sa kanya ko nasasabi madalas kahit mga kalungkutan ko. However, may mga taong masasabi kong best friend din sa paraang di nila napapansin. basta... labo... eniweys... naenjoy ko ang araw na ito. cge! babay! God is great!!!!!!!!!!!
ay honga pala! nagpunta kami ni joy and uniq sa UP last sunday! hehe...
natapos na namin kuya Josh ang Follow-Ups! hehe...
nagpaturo uli ako frisbee ke Revin. Woaaah! frisbee! kahit natamaan labi ko sakit hehe pero enjoy. Tapos masakit din yung isa kong daliri hehe... pero enjoy.
woah! gusto ko magswimming!
o cge na! tulog na ko ah! apir tayo dyan! yan. ayos!
PS: Jesus is my best ever friend!!!!!! sobra! :)
Sept.13, 2006

IS GOVERNMENT POWER STOOD OVER BY CORPORATIONS?
A Perspective on Corporations' Dominance Over Governments and its Implication in the Philippine Context and Setting
Aaron Laylo

Do corporations run the world? YES.
But not in all aspects. In politics, we may say that their influence is undoubtedly apparent. Policies that are passed to Congress may most likely serve the interests of the legislators themselves because most members of the legislative body come from the corporate ranks. However, there still remains, to some extent, a limitation to the rights of corporations regarding their operations and business influences. They are still subject to rules and regulations of the government. But latently, they actually have huge control and influence to state policies when their interests are at hand.
Governments do legislate, implement, regulate and administer but aren't these corporations the ones that have latent control and influence upon these policies that the government provides? In realization, they still are manipulators of government in one way or another. In this article, I present the question 'is government power stood over by corporations?'
In terms of dominance and control over world trade and influences on economic and even political policies, corporations do run the world. Its political influence has already been said above. On the economic aspect, global economy is being largely controlled by the dominant leaders of giant economies whether in terms of national wealth per se or specific giant corporations that are even larger than some countries' economy! And although there are bodies formed to regulate international trade and commerce such as the World Bank, World Trade Organization and other UN monetary bodies, and proposed structural adjustments for trade and tariffs, transnational corporations are still influential and somehow manipulative of these bodies. I have nothing against WB,WTO and UN bodies. In fact, they have good suggestions that have benefited countries in their economic state. BUT these are formed to regulate and mediate on multi-concerns. They should not be biased.
Corporations may argue that their business concerns complement that of the country where it operates and that their success is shared by its people. This may be right in some areas of contention. But they should also take into consideration their treatment to their workers, the labor sector through unions that have been busted in most countries because of the pro-corporate policies that these countries implement. On environmental concerns, do they comply to all environmental policies on pollution and protection of resources? Or do they sometimes violate people's right to use their own raw resources? These chain-connection of factors should be taken into consideration by these corporations before they argue that they really are in service for the people. They operate business for profit and not invest for public concern alone. Yes, they serve the needs of consumers from clothes to fuel to groceries to credits and so on BUT at the end of the day, they still get what they invested in overflowing profits.
In the Philippines, private corporations seem to be powerful and influential in the political floor. Same as in the case of "big tobacco, big pharmaceuticals, big oil" and so on, giant corporations in the country pose strong and earnest role and influence on national policies and the market (especially in the latter). But good thing, whereas in industrialized countries where privatization, liberalization, radicalization and other pro-corporate actions happen like it's the trend of the state, the Philippine government still has control over corporations and can regulate rates and prices. On the effect of transnational corporations in the economy, bare enough, they "co-operate" with other Philippine corporations although obviously, they are more competent given their international marketability, financial capacity for operations and promotions and of course, their advertisements play significant part. In the country, Unilever, Nestle, Colgate-Palmolive are household names overriding even "local" conglomerates. They contribute to the Philippine economy BUT this may also pose a foreign-dependent economy. Thus, breaking the leg for national pursuance of making national industries. What does the Philippine government do regarding these concerns? Apparently, it tolerates foreign investment and the rampant use of national resources for TNCs' advantage for production. Adam Smith, in his "Wealth of Nations" saw corporations, as much as governments, as instruments for suppressing the competitive forces of the market, and his condemnation of them was uncompromising (Korten, 1995). This trend of giving prioritization to corporate interests over general welfare implies that corporations, in general and not particular in the Philippine setting, are indeed influential even on these matters. What does the government do on this? Again, tolerance "for economic survival's sake.
The nation itself is a corporation. It has legal mandate, population, domain and corporate name. In itself, competition may be healthy or imbalanced. But when corporations tend to dominate the national government, it implies weakness in building a project o nationhood. The national government should stand on its role as the distributor of public wealth and services. Corporations, on the other hand, are still and should be under government supervision and regulation as to maintain and protect public interests. Nevertheless, they are given rights to operate as much as they want under laws and regulations. There should be harmonious co-existence and mutual progress, meaning without the expense of violating the other's rights. You may attest that I am suggesting an ideal but impossible picture of national government/ international governance - corporations relationship. But that is how a project of nationhood could be made possible. That may also be one way to prevent the wanton actions of powerful corporations. In this way, national interest (a factor in the project of nationhood) may be pursued. Unless one "gives way for the sake of the other" in mutual terms, the said dilemma would continue to create conflicts between forces.
The contention: what runs the world: governments or corporations? Corporations run the world. But to disclaim, "in some ways, not in all aspects." Corporations are manipulators of government in one way or another but government still has the power. Manipulation is not always equal with power.
The authority of a nation over the affairs and concerns of the people should always be observed and upheld and not disregarded. The general welfare of the citizens should always be one of the top concerns and priorities of governments along with progress and development. And so, when corporations seem to dominate and devour citizens' concerns and rights to basic services, these governments should stand on its role of intervening for the cause of its citizens. Business corporations indeed contribute to the economic progress of a nation as a corporation (in its real sense). But they have limitations. They are indirectly taking hold of the global market and economy and even surpassing their limits over international law. This should not be tolerated.

Sources and related links:
Email debate: Do corporations rule?, BBC's Who Runs Your World? series.
http://www.thirdworldtraveler.com/Korten/RiseCorpPower_WCRW.html
http://www.ips-dc.org/reports/top200text.htm
http://daga.dhs.org/daga/press/superstates/appendix10.htm

2006-09-18T15:04:00.000+07:00

The painting on the left is "The Reading Boy." I called it that kasi nagbabasa haha logic eh! haha! I painted it on eday after my nineteenth birthday.

I named the next painting as "Amistad Ultima." I was to paint something about sadness and had the title "Tristan" in my mind. Tristan is from triste, meaning sadness because the week before I painted this, I was a lil sad. But at the time I was about to paint this already, my sadness was almost gone. So I took frinedship as theme. Yeah, God lead me to paint about friendship. Sa mga panahong ito, sobrang enjoy ko ang friendship sa mga taong nasa inner circle ko. Kaya ito hehe. Ulti. mate sana ang title, suggestion ni Rev, isa sa mga suggestion na nagustuhan ko kasi a friendship could be ultimate din, meaning greatest, furthest, highest... parang ganun. But I think Amistad is a more appropriate title so Amistad na lang ulit. Pasubali sa mga nagsuggest. hehe. In fairness, mahusay ang mga suggestions. I used canvass for this and poster paints. There.

Weeeeeeeeeeeeehhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! I dedicate all these paintings sa aking Great Master Artist! si God! yoooohoooo! Because He gave this talent and I'll use this talent to glorify His name and to make people happy in one way or another. :)

2006-09-06T15:54:00.000+07:00

ganda ng mga ceiling design ng Gateway Mall sa Araneta. Neon lights. Modern. A lil futuristic.
And the interior of the mall, zen ang design. ganda. nakapunta na ko befor pero kahapon lang ulit ako nakapasyal.

2006-08-31T23:17:00.000+07:00

hehe.. it has been a great day!
hmm... maaga umalis sina mama. inasikaso yung internet cafe kasama si Arian. Umalis ako sa bahay around 1030 yata and arrived at SM around 12. Bumili ng perfume and went to UP after.
Tapos tumambay lang. Nung hapon, ang saya! kasi nakapagwitness kami ni Carlo. Nung medyo tanghali, magwiwitnessing sana kami ni Jamie o ni kuya Bong kaso may class na si Jamie tapos may gagawin si kuya Bong. Di pa kasi ako sanay na mag-isa. But I have to. Tapos nung hapon, nagyaya na si Carlo magwitnessing. Go! praise God dahil di bumuhos ang ulan kahit nagbabanta ang panahon. Sa AS kami nagwitnessing. Si Billy ang pinagwitnessan ko. I hope that he was sincere when receiving Christ in his heart. :) Tapos nun, nagshare naman kami sa first floor mula sa second yun. Tapos nakapagshare kami sa dalawa, sina Aien and Jeff. Praise God for that! Tapos nung gabi, naghintay kami sa mga sasama sa SM. Supposedly, sina Revin, Pre and lest lang ang sama pero twas nice that Pao, Jeremy, Liah, Emman and Carlo were also there. Great. So we went to SM and ate at Tokyo Tokyo. Sayang at dinner na lang. sana magstroll pa pero gabi na at magsasara na ang SM. Pero masaya pa rin. Here are somes pics dinner.

Maayong aga na pala! its 1230am :) God is good all the time! :)

2006-08-27T20:35:00.000+07:00

Mga Pangyayari sa Buhay ko nitong mga nakaraang araw.

Hmm... nung Tuesday, halos 4 na oras or mas kaunti pa ang tulog ko. Seven o clock ang una kong klase, maaga akong umalis ng bahay, nagpahatid kay mama para di ma-late. Debate namin. Praise God! ako ang naging best debater from among three nominees. Masaya. After nun, diretso sa production ni Shirley sa CMC. Todod emote para sa p[roduction. Take Me Out of the Dark ang song. Tapos nun, Spanish... Science... Tapos midterm exam sa PA. Tapos punta sa Bahay ng Alumni para sa Ravi Z. Seminar. Tapos pumunta kami Laguna, sa bahay nina Revin. Saya, although di ko pa sila ka-close lahat, nagkaron ng chance na lol ko silang makilala. Andun sina Revin, siempre siya ang host. Tapos si Shi, Roxy, Precee, Lester and Laila. :) Grabe ilang oras ang naitulog ko. From Laguna, diretso sa UP dahil tuloy ang interview para sa Local Government class ko. I almost forgot about it. So bangag ako nun kaya di ako masyado nakapagtanong. After that, I went tothe College of Law to get copies of SCRA. Tapos naghintay kasi 1pm pa daw makukuha yung kopya. So pumunta muna ako sa tambayan. Walang tao. Mabuti at nandun pala si Rev sa kotse malapit sa tambayan at may nakausap ako. Tapos dumating si Celso. Hmm... di pa kami close ni Celso eh. Tapos dumating si Laila. Ayun.. tapos si Precee. Ayun pumunta kaming apat sa FA para maglunch altho naghalf long na ako. So quail eggs na lang dinagdag ko. Mabuti na alng at may auto si Revo at di na hassle ang kakasakay ng jeep. Balim tambayan. Tambay. Tapos may dumating na mga promotions sumthing or advertisment tester sumthing... ayun... e di sumama na kami kasi baka may freebies... hehe kami lang ni Precee ang naqualify kasi 20 na kami. Ayun... may free na clothes ventilation thing. Hehe. Tapos nun, balik Law tapos... uwi na :) At natulog nang halos 14 hours????? haha! ayun. Cge gawa na ako ng para sa school!
ay teka, yung OM pala!!!!!!
Kahapon, ummatend ako ng Operation Potrero Malabon. Nagtutor ako sa first year students ng Science tapos English one on one. Hmm.. saya naman. Andun sina Shiela, Revin, Liah, Laila, Emman, Richelle, Tatika, Ze and Jeremy... wala na ba ko nakalimutan... yung mga yun, sa bus tapos pagdating sa Barangay Hall, andun yung iba panmg people. Ayun.. sina ate Carol... tapos sakay kami sa van. Andun kamisa likod katawa kasi siksikan kami hehehe... tapos naligaw ligaw kami. Hanggangsa natunton ang high school.. Potero high School yata o Malabon National High School. Di ko maalala tingin ko Potrero High Lang kasi di di siya mukhang National high eh... Masaya naman. Nakaktuwa. Sarap ng feeling, at PRAISE GOD! nasharan ko si Gilbert, yung tinutoran ko sa English :) I pray that God, through His Spirit will move in Gilbert's young life since he recieved Jesus Christ in his heart as his Lord and Savior. Umulan nung gabi. Nakapunta ako sa bagong annex ng SM north.

Kanina, nag-attend kami sa Bread of Life. Yun na muna. Bye :)

God is good all the time!!!!!!!! :)

2006-08-19T19:59:00.000+07:00

Liham sa isang kaibigang (di ko alam kung paano)

ang sakit! pag yung tinuturing mong kaibigan, parang trapo ka lang. sige, kung nababasa mo man to, lalayo na lang ako. pero tandaan mo to, kahit ano mangyari, tinuring kitang kaibigan. naging kaibigan kita. lalayo na lang ako kasi masakit kapag di mo nabibigay ang atensyon na para sa isang kaibigan. Hindi ako kulang sa pansin pero kung kaibigan ka, maiintindihan mo. Tandaan, mamahalin kita bilang kaibigan dahil lahat ng kaibigan ko pinahahalagahan ko, minamahal ko. Hindi sa naiingit ako sa kanila. Kaibigan mo din sila. Pero siguro, nag-assume nga lang akong magkaibigan tayo. Paalam... kapatid at kaibigan.. ang sakit talaga :( bakit ganun ka? sige malamang kung mabasa mo man, wala ka na ring pakialam kasi siguro di mo ako kaibigan. Pasensiya na, madrama ako. Pero gusto ko ilabas lahat ng lungkot ko. Basta! ayun, kahit ano mangyari, ttandaan mo, minahal kita at tinuring kitang kaibigan. Sana maisip mo yun. Paalam. Apir. God bless. Di ako galit ok? paalam.

2006-08-19T10:34:00.000+07:00

ALWAYS

Did You rise the sun for me? Or paint a million stars that I might Know Your majesty? Is Your voice upon the wind? Is everything I've known marked With my Maker's fingerprints? Breathe on me. Let me see Your face. Ever I will seek You. 'Cause all You are is all I want always. Draw me close in Your arms. Oh God, I wanna be with You. Can I feel You in the rain? Abandon all I am to have You capture me again. Let the earth resound with praise. Can You hear as all creation lives To glorify one name JESUS.

2006-08-17T20:44:00.000+07:00

KAIN TAYO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wooooooooaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!! super sarap kumain ng mga ito! raspberry cheesecake
cinnamon bread with raisins and milk cream
black forest cake and donuts
tapos dagdagan pa natin ng coffee with its hmmmmmmmm!!!!!!!!!!!!! aroma!
san ka pa! woaaaaaah! kain tayo!

hehehehehe :)

2006-08-17T10:32:00.000+07:00

Whom have I in heaven but You? And earth has nothing I desire besides You. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. Ps.73:25&26

God Is The Strength Of My Heart

Whom have I in heaven but You?
There is nothing on earth I desire beside You
My heart and my strength, many times they fail,
but there is one truth that always will prevail.
God is the strength of my heart,
God is the strength of my heart
God is the strength of my heartand my portion forever

2006-08-16T23:38:00.000+07:00

Mga Naiisip...

I feel sad and anxious. I know I should not worry of so many things. I am the kind of person kasi who worries a lot though as a child of God, I know I should not be such. The unreasonable statement "sapagkat ako'y tao lamang" is something that I often think of when I'm in this point of melancholy and anxiety. But this is indeed unreasonable and not applicable at all now that I'm already a Christian because I am a new creation now and have been given the power and strength from God. His Spirit gives me the courage to look beyond these gray smoky thoughts. I have always been a worrier. I should not be so.
Lord, I'm sorry coz at many times, I still worry. You said we should not worry kasi You're our Provider and a Father won't let His children be harmed or left out. Why do I worry of my future? I always look back sa mga past mistakes, regrets... pero para saan pa? Well, may mga lessons akong natutuhan mula sa mga iyon. I believe that everything that God does in our lives is with a purpose. Naniniwala akong yung mga di magagandang bagay na nangyari o nangyayari sa buhay ko ay bunga ng mga di ko pagsunod sa Kanyang kalooban sa buhay ko. Minsan, ako ang nasusunod sa buhay ko o pinagpipilitan ko ang gusto ko. Para saan pang LORD ko Siya kung di rin naman ako magpapasailalim sa Kanyang kalinga at panguguna sa buhay ko?

Kunin ang lessons sa nakaraan. Mabuhay sa kasalukuyan at gawin ang best. Harapin nang may tatag ang bukas. Sa lahat ng panahon, kahit kailan, hindi Siya nagkulang. Never had been a time when God left or forgotten me. He never did forget me nor left me alone. He has always been faithful in my life. Indeed, he is my God.

Ang dami Niyang biyaya sa akin. I should not worry. Aaron... smile naman dyan.

8:54pm August 14, 2006

2006-08-16T23:30:00.000+07:00

mahirap yata magmahal (sa romantikong usapan) kung ang mahal mo ay iba ang mahal.
disregard this.

change usapan.

okay, what happened today? umaga, bible study with kuya josh. nagpagraduation picture nung bandang 1:30. After which, kumain ako sa casaa, tapos nagconsult ng GWA. tapos pumunta sa center. Umattend si Eugene, iniinvite ko siya noon pa, nice naman at nakaattend siya kanina. Hmm... mejo quiet mood ko kanina e. Nung hapon mejo ok pa ako pero nung gabi, parang pagod lang siguro saka il call it.. "domination over meek theory" where in a person dominates a meek perosn in terms of attitude although the first may or may not be aware of it. Kapag may maingay na, tahimik na ako. Saka tahimik lang naman talaga akong tao.

Naantok na ko.

2006-08-10T19:43:00.000+07:00

She

she has these charming eyes
not so chiseled nose
lovely lips, not kissable though haha
red as strawberry, shiny as cherry
curly is her hair that waves gently down to her shoulders
her pinkish cheeks seem like blushing all the time
and your teeth, they glisten as you smile so sweetly
but hey, im just torpe... hehe... im just reluctant to approach you
all i can do when you are near is to smile and say hi -----------
thats all i can do for now
i dont know if I can say what my heart wants to shout
well maybe someday.. not now..
i'll gain some courage and pogi points muna.
pero i know, la na ring chance coz he has your heart
am i a loser now? im just torpe. urggggggggggg!!!!! bat ganito?
anyway, i know its close to impossible that you can read this entry.
but if it happens, i don't expect that you'll leave a comment.
You wouldn't care. would you? i dunno. haaay... he has your heart.
He has it. he has it. I lost you. No i didn't lose you coz i never had you.
So is this goodbye young torpe? are you saying good bye to her?
Ang torpe mo. Ang duwag mo pare.
I'll just think of you and that sweet captivating smile... so charming smile...
For me, that's enough. Masaya na ko.. But when will I see you again?
Owel, hasta la vista my -------... oi nagrarhyme!

pahabol... kumain kaming family sa Ha Yuan last Sunday after church... saya

2006-08-03T11:06:00.000+07:00

Pasta...first time...

por da perstaym in may howl layp, ay was eybol tu cuk ispagiti!
I was assigned... or did i volunteer to cook? yata... hehe... sa grill-out ng brotherhood sa CCC. I was excited to cook kasi ang kadalasang niluluto ko lang naman ay piniritong itlog, hotdog, instant noodles... hmmm... ano pa ba, un lang yata. basta mga prito tsaka yung iniinit lang tas luto na hehehe. Last tuesday nagpaturo pa talaga ako ng pasta recipe kay mama and arian.Gusto ko maglasang italian! gusto ko sana pork pro may mga vegetarian, gusto ko sana spicy pero may mga ayaw ng maanghang... anyweiz, the cooking was fun. Enjoyed it. Kuya josh helped me habang while we were having our bible study sa Romans 2. Hmm... nandun sina Dan, Revin, Lester, Pao, Dju, Clifford, Gian,Dwight, Viv tsaka ako. Umalis kasi agad si kuya josh. Yeah sampu yata kami... hmm... di ko alam kung talagang masarap. Pero they said the spaghetti was fine except that the pasta was soggy. Nakaligtaan kasi namin ni kuya josh na idrain ang tubig... tsktsktsk... masarap naman daw. Puede na mag-asawa hahaha! pero i enjoyed cooking... kaya pala culinary arts... kasi dapat may art talaga... hehe. haay...

ps. mahirap din pala maghanap ng ingredients kapag limited ang budget haha..

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Imagination

Nilagay ko ito sa friendster nung time na miss ko siya hehe... nilagay ko na rin dito.. parang natawa ako sa mga pinagsusulat ko.

I just wana shout!!!!
Miss na kita!
Tapos nakita ko yung isang siya kanina! astig! ang pretty pa rin niya!
Mejo sumsaya na ba ako ngayon????
Woooooooooaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sana nasa top ako ng hill tapos sigaw lang ako. Tapos biglang nandun siya sa likod ko tapos we'll lie down sa grass and gaze upon the blue sky! and the clouds... tapos we'll sing. tapos... i'll hold her hand and say.. tara sayaw tayo... tapos we'll dance sa top ng hill... tapos ang lakas ng hangin... hinahangin yung buhok niya napupunta sa mata ko.. ang sakit... tumama sa mata ko. tapos titingnan niya mata ko... tapos uwi na kami... ay di pa pala... daan muna kami sa river tapos inom ng tubig tapos magpapatangay sa agos hanggang tangayin... at malimutan ang lahat...
Gusto na kitang makilala... sana dumating ka na sa buhay ko... sana kasama na kita... para lagi na akong magsmile... tapos... laro swimming tayo... tapos laro tayo ng taguan tsaka football o kaya habulan hehe... sino ka ba? nagkita na ba tayo? Kanta tayo.. yung magandang song.. tapos we'll ride a boat tapos ako magsasagwan... tapos you smile at me... tapos... tapos..... kailan matatapos ang imahinasyong ito... ngayon na...
Alam ko darating din ang araw na ibibigay ng Diyos ang magiging kasama ko sa habang buhay. Maaring hindi pa ngayon ang tamang panahon. Hindi pa nga... pero malapit na... malapit na.

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Mga lugar na gusto ko puntahan:

Batanes, Davao, Cebu, Boracay... yun lang muna... hehe... sana may pera no? hehe
woah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ang thesis ko!

2006-07-30T14:41:00.000+07:00

Nag-aalala ako para sa thesis ko. Baka papalitan pa ang topic. Baka second sem na ako grumaduate. Ayoko na... Nakakapagod na. Gusto ko lang gumala with friends. Gusto kong kumanta ng kumanta. Gusto kong malunod sa musika. Gusto kong magministry lang... pero ang pagiging magandang halimbawa at huwaran ay parte rin ng ministry kaya dapat akong magtiyaga at magserioso sa mga bagay-bagay. Nakita ko si Patricia kanina. She still looks great. Pretty. Mejo tumaba lang yata tsaka humaba ang hair. Other than that... hmm... wala na masyado nagbago. I dunno if theres still that spark na crush ko siya at siya lang ang babaeng umiyak ako dahil umalis siya. Pero meyn, tapos na yun at suko na ako. She has found her man. And Im up! surrender... yata.. ewan.

Woah naisip ko lang ngayon... sino ba mga naging crush ko simula grade 2...
Gloridei?
Crisanta Hermoso
Jocel Galapon
si Yves
si Crisida
hmm... si Khiss... na narealize ko bat ko nga ba naging crush????
tapos nitong college na ako..si Patricia
and si Shiela... (oi tsong ang suwerte mo, friend mo siya... hehe di naman niya ito mababasa)
pero sa lahat ng yun... haay... siya talaga... and di ko alam kung kelan na ulit darating ang panahong maiinlab ang hopeless romantikong torpeng kid. ewan ko.
Hmm... wala naman sigurong magbabasa ng entry na ito kaya malakas ang loob kong isulat ito. Wahahahaha! at di ko naman ito nilagay sa friendster kaya wala masyadong access... haha.

Hmm... nalulungkot ako at nag-aalala... parang ang laki ng pressure sa buhay...

Gusto ko magbanda! Gusto ko kumanta at yumaman! hahah! pero music talaga... gusto ko malunod sa musika!

Lord, please help me, ang lakas ng pressures sa mundo. Nakakapagod...nakakapanghina... Ikaw lang naman lakas ko... wala nang iba...yung lakas na di nawawala.

2006-07-29T22:10:00.000+07:00

Magnificent

Who compares to You
Who set the stars in their place
You who calmed the raging seas
That came crashing over me
Who compares to You
You who bring the morning light
The hope of all the earth
Is rest assured in Your great love

You are magnificent eternally
Wonderful, glorious
Jesus, no one ever will compare to You Jesus

When the evening fades
You call forth songs of joy
As the morning wakes
We your children give You praise

By the Power of Your Love

Lord I come to You
Let my heart be changed, renewed
Flowing from the grace that I found in You
Lord I've come to know
The weaknesses I see in me
Will be stripped away,
By the power of Your love

Hold me close
Let Your love surround me
Bring me near draw me into Your side
And as i wait
I'll rise up like the eagle
And I will soar with You
Your Spirit leads me on
In the power of Your love.

Lord unveil my eyes
Let me see You face to face
The knowledge of Your love
As You live in me.
Lord, renew my mind
As Your will unfolds in my life
In living everyday
By the power of Your love.

I Simply Live For You

Say the Word…and I will sing for You
Over oceans deep…I will follow
If each star was a song
And every breath of wind praise
It would still fail by far
To say all my heart contains
I simply live…I simply live for You

Say the Word…and I will sing for You
Over oceans deep…I will follow
If each star was a song
And every breath of wind praise
It would still fail by far
To say all my heart contains
I simply live…I simply live for You

As the glory of Your presence…now fills this place
In worship we will meet You…face to face
There is nothing in this world
To which You can be compared
Glory on glory…praise upon praise
You bind the broken-hearted…and save all my tears
By your Word…You set the captive free
There is nothing in this world…that You cannot do
I simply live…I simply live for You

Gusto kong malunod sa Iyong presensiya. Gusto ko nang kumawala sa mundong ito. Pero alam kong may misyon ako dito at iyon ang ang ipakilala Ka sa kanila. Kahit gusto ko nang bumalik sa aking tahanan, maghihintay ako't gagawin ang Iyong nais. Lord, love Kita. I'll obey. Give me the strength to do what You want me to do...

Bigyan mo po ako ng lakas sa kabila ng pressures ng mundo. Nakakapagod pero alam ko nandyan Ka na lakas ko kaya di ako susuko. Hindi ako susuko hanggang sa ako'y sunduin mo na.

2006-07-29T15:08:00.000+07:00

back to black hair... ang saya! namiss ko black hair. Nung thursday nagpadye ako.

first time ko magsonglead s CCC kahapon.
grabe pawis ko sa kaba at init.

hmm.. ang line-up: Better Than Life
Trading My Sorrow
I Simply Live for You
Breathe

2006-07-25T18:38:00.000+07:00

I just transcribed these posts from my friendster blog because I found out that after a while, my past posts would not be shown at all when I post new ones. Sayang naman all those thoughts and memories that I express di ba? so here...

Sarap magpaulan
Sarap magpaulan. After a long time, nagpaulan ulit ako parang bata. I went out to our backyard and enjoyed the light downpour. Sayang di malakas. hehe. I just miss those days when I, my brother and our neighborhood friends would play and enjoy the rain! Hehe... Now that I'm a lil older, the childlike attitude, fun and excitement is still here to stay. :) I love the rain... minsan.
July 25, 2006

Schedule lang: wag na basahin
I want to write so many things. I want to express so many ideas in my mind right now. Share my thoughts and just let it all out. Anyways, I think I'm not so focused right now as to make a well-structured entry. Actually, when i put a blog entry. its either I just want to express random thoughts or write something very very sensible that I want other people to know about it when they read. Oh well, since I'm not soooooooo focused right now, and I think another purpose of this board is "to scratch round," well, I'll just put my sched here. I have to organize stuff. Not being OC but just putting things in order para maayos naman.
Alryt, today is Monday. Walang pasok. Si Glenda namamasyal. (Glenda is a typhoon name). May SONA mamaya. Kailangan ko ring gawin ang reaction paper sa Bio 1. And ayusin ang folio at resume na ipapasa ko tom.
For Wednesday, may BS kami. Umaga yun. So sa hapon, magbabasa ako para sa Admin Law exam on Saturday. Gagawa na rin ako ng reviewe containing main points of those cases. Tsaka pala yung Constitution rereviewhin ko pa. Tapos sa hapon at gabi, magluluto for the cook-out. On thursday walang pasok. Reviwe buong araw for the exam sa Bio 1. On Friday, exam sa Bio tapos sa gabi, Movement Life. Sa Saturday, bluebook, exam sa Admin Law tapos frisbee sa hapon. Alrayt! ayos na. Sana masuynod ko naman ang ginawa kong iskedyul.
July 23, 2006

Frisbee
Hoohooo! sarap pala magfrisbee! Yesterday, I had a lot of fun! Enjoy ko araw ko kahapon kahit mejo busy. I was in UP from around 10am to 6pm. First, we (ako and my classmates) conducted an interview with Hon. Gravides, Brgy. Up Campus' Chairman for our PA Local Government and Regional Administration Class. Ang lamig sa room ng barangay kasi umulan nung umaga. Malamig sa Diliman kahapon eh. Tapos nun, pumunta ako Vinzons nandun sina Carlo and Kuya Ricky. Pupunta dapat kami n Shyl sa College of Law para kunin ang mga kulang pang cases para naman sa Administrative Law. Pero since magtu-12 na, di na kami tumuloy. Tumambay muna ako sa Mainlib at nakaidlip. Nagbasa din ako ng Romans 1 para sa Bible study namin ni Kuya Josh sa hapon. 1pm naman naglakad ako papuntang CMC to meet Remelyn who borrowed my copy of the barangay profile..tapos meet ko sana si Ponce to get the tickets. Kaso di kami nagkita kaya bumali na ako sa Law at naghanap na naman kami ni Shyl ng cases. After which, I went to Vinzons at kumain ng quail eggs. Tapos pumunta sa tambayan. Nandun si Revin at nagkuwentuhan muna kami. Tapos basa ulit ako ng Romans 1. Tapos umalis na si Revin at ako na lang ulit ang nasa tambayan. Buti dumating si Jeremy tsaka si Lester. ilang sandali pa dumating na si kuya Josh. Tapos may dumating ulit na mga Koreans hehe. Tapos nun... nagBS na kami ni Kuya Josh. Tapos frisbeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!! yahooooooooo! first time ko maglaro ng frisbee hehe ang sarap maglaro ng frisbee. Tapos dumiretso na kami sa Student Center, naglaro at kumain. tapos mga 11 yata ako nakauwi sa bahay!
Mga bagay na gusto ko magkaroon ngayon:
laptop... disc ng frisbee... bike!!!!!!!!!!! uhmmm... tsaka magpabraces. at saka pala bagong bible!!!!!!!!! kasi luma na yung maliit kong Bible e. Sana naman yung maayos tsaka magaan dalhin sa bag. Yung Bible ko kasing isa sa bahay e ang laki at mabigat. Ayun... tsaka yung isnag maliit, New testament lang. Kaya gusto ko bumili ng maliit pero completong Old and New Testaments.
Hooooooooo! sarap magfrisbee. kanina kinukulit ko lang sina Arian at mama kahit ayaw na nila maglaro ng frisbee dito sa lang sa bahay. Buti na lang at malaki ang haus. Pero mukhang lilipat na rin kami sa mas maliit na house eh. Ayos lang kung saan makakamura.
Yung Bible study pala namin kahapon, ang ganda... this is the gist: Romans 1:17 "The righteous will live by faith." No one is righteous but we struggle to be righteous because that is what God wants us to be and to be that kind of person, we should be faithful.
Woah! ang dami ko nasulat ngayon ah! hehe... mamaya mag-aaral pa ako sa Spamish para sa quiz tom... tapos magbabasa pa dapat ng readings sa Socio... woaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... yung thesis ko!!!!
God is good, all the time.
Masaya ako ngayon, man!
July 20, 2006

great things start from small beginnings
Nainspire ako sa message ni God ngayong araw. Indeed, bigs things start from small stuff. Just be humble. Wait. And see God's work... maaamaze ka na lang.
Great things start from humble beginnings.
You can never reach a mile without a single step.
(unless nakawheel chair ka at sinakay sa airplane o barko). pero minsan, kailangan pa rin minsan magstep ah hehe
July 16, 2006

sick man
I feel sick pa rin. I am sick. Cough too. Tsk tsk tsk. Kahapon, nanood kami Superman. Ayos naman kaso parang may kulang sa film e. Anyway, parang nalulungkot lang ako cgrop dahil nanghihina lang ako at nag-aalala para bukas. Kailangan ko pumasok bukas. May CE din pala bukas.
July 10, 2006

Mahal na Kita
Isa kang lilak na sa unang tingin ay payak na ganda
Subalit nang mamasdan ka, ako'y nahalina
Ang iyong alaala sa isip ko'y sumuot na yata
Pagkat bawat araw na lang o oras din
Ikaw ang nais makasama.
Kanina, di kita nakita
Akala ko pa nama'y masisilayan ko
ang ngiti sa iyong labi
ang kislap sa iyong mahalinang mata
Giliw, korni man ang tula ko
Basta yu na yun... basta miss kita
Parang araw ko'y nalulumbay
pag di ka nasulyapan.
Di bale baka bukas o sa susunod na araw
o sa isang linggo o kung kailanman kita muling makita,
Pag nakita kita ulit...
Haaaay.... di ko kayang sabihin.
Basta mahal kita. Mahal na mahal kita.

15 pounds
Fifteen pounds is quite achievable. Kailangan ko magdagdag ng 15 pounds!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Masyado na akong napapayatan sa sarili ko. Parang ang gaan-gaan ko. Kahit 15 lang ok na or mas mabigat pa. So far, mejo naapektuhan na yata ang self-esteem ko pero di naman yung sobrang apektado na. Kahit paano siempre, gusto ko proportioned and weight and height ko. My frame is 5'8 and my weight is about 128 Ibs. Di proportion. Kaya ngayon, kahit nahihirapan akong magpataba, pinipilit kong kumain nang kumain at mula ngayon, sisikapin kong matulog nang maaga. Kung kakayanin pa magpapantok ako tuwing tanghali para tulog ako sa hapon. Kailangan ko nang tumaba ng kaunti.
June 24, 2006

DRAW ME CLOSE

Draw me close to You,
Never let me go.
I lay it all down again
To hear You say that I’m Your friend.
You are my desire,
No one else will do,
‘Cause nothing else could take Your place,
To feel the warmth of Your embrace.
Help me find the way,
Bring me back to You. You’re all I want.
You’re all I ever needed.
You’re all I want.
Help me know You are near.
June 21, 2006

2006-07-20T22:43:00.000+07:00

I am a late maturing guy. When other guys crazily look for girlfriends, I watch TV and kust enjoy malling. When they think mature stuff, I think of what to eat later. haha! actually its just an illustration to show how immature ive been. I tried once how it would be to court a girl. Yeah believe it or not. This young guy here tried to reach that girl through... hahahaha! text!!!!! lang. That was how torpe i have been. After a year or so, i told her that what i texted her were true. That I like her. And to my surprise (well, not actually surprised), she thought everything was a joke because in the first place, I was a friend. and second... i was childlike.. makulit at parang di siniserioso ang lahat.

Man, sabi ko maggigirl friend na ako pag 21 na ako. Im 20 now. Im looking but not really desperate to find one. Ibibigay naman siya ni God di ba? so I'll just wait patiently for her and just enjoy being single and enjoy college life to its fullest. I really enjoy my collge life now even though this is is my last year in collge... last sem actually. I was not so sociable (if there's such a term) during my first years in college. Its just now that i hang out with peeps and come late at home. Well, i still try to put everything in balance but again, I still prioritize God above all and put Him at the center of everything. If I wont, I'd mess up. God is my conductor to sing the song of life. Its late now, i still have to review and read for tomorrow's quiz, recitations and rest para malakas ako tom. God has always been so good to me. Kahit palpak ako sa mga ginagawa ko, He's always been faithful to me.

2006-07-16T18:53:00.000+07:00

ABOUT THE MUSTARD

He replied, "Because you have so little faith, I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing is impossible for you." Matthew 17:20

The Parable of the Mustard Seed
Jesus told them another parable: "The Kingdom of heaven is like this. A man takes a mustard seed and sows it in his field. It is the smallest of all seeds, but when it grows up, it is the biggest of all plants. It becomes a tree so that the birds come and make their nests in its branches." Matthew 13:31-32

Facts:
Seeds from the mustard plant, most commonly available is the brown version, which has the best flavor. The black mustard seed has a sharper, stronger flavor and the yellow and white mustard seeds have a milder flavor.

2006-07-12T22:06:00.000+07:00

Poems

I like reading nice poems.

The Goodbye Song
By: Aaron Laylo
Everywhere I go, its everything i see
Its just too hard too hard to take off my mind
There's a piece of you within me
That keeps me smiling again
You're just unforgettable.
I love you... i love you still.

But we have to part ways and live our lives.
Move on and keep the good memories
All those laughs and tears we had
But everything happens for a reason
And we just let go.

That keeps me smiling again
You're just unforgettable.
I love you... i love you still.
Girl, i must admit
its hard for me to leave
But soon we'll see
Everything has a reason
We just let go
I love you.. and will always do.

(untitled poem)
I remember the look in your eyes
When I told you that this was
goodbye
You were begging me not tonight
Not here, not now
We're looking up at the same
night sky
And keep pretending the sun will
not rise
Be together for one more night
Somewhere, somehow

There's a piece of you that's here
with me
It's everywhere I go, it's
everything I see
When I sleep, I dream and it gets
me by
I can make believe that you're
here tonight

If I could find you now things
would get better
We could leave this town and
run forever
Let your waves crash down on
me and take me away

From Glory to Glory
by: Maxine Mamba
I can feel it in my bones.
My destiny beckons.
Everything in my life is falling into place
towards His plan.
IT is awesome, and it is mine.
Things that are old and unneccessary are departing,
as that which is meaningful is returning to stay.
Life is perfection in flux.
IT can happen to you too...

2006-07-12T13:21:00.000+07:00

Getting better

I feel better now. For the last three days or so, I was sick. Last Sunday, after watching Superman, i felt weak. I think that was because of the hamog! We left the cinema around 11pm eh. We didnt finish the last full show though we were able to watch the film in full. So there, tired body plus hamog equals sipon. Yung cough, i dunno, i think its also one of the effects of such cause. Haaay... last Monday, i was just here at home since i had no class and i was sick.. yesterday, i attended classes even tho at times, i felt weak pa rin e. Today, supposedly, I would go to CCC student Center in Katipunan to attend a training seminar on songleading and emceeing. Before that, I should be meeting with kuya Josh for our BS. I really wanted to come and participate but the Lord lead me not to go out but instead take some rest para di na mabinat. The weather is not nice as well. Im just here at home. Sana may makabuluhang magawa.

2006-07-07T20:54:00.000+07:00

DRUMZ

Basta gusto ko lang magdrums. matuto magdrums.
Naastigan ako sa mga marunong magdrums. Parang ang free tumugtog!

Galing ako Movement Life, activity sa UP ng Campus Crusade for Christ.

Druuuuuuuuuuuuuuums!

2006-07-06T10:23:00.000+07:00

Kahapon: Cook Out

Kahapon, I bought a UP shirt. P165.
Kahapon, I went to the Col of Law and borrowed a book on Administrative Law.
Kahapon, pumunta akong tambayan, walang tao. Sakto dumating si Revin at pumunta kami sa CCC student center
Kahapon, first time kong umattend sa CCC men's out cook-out or sumthing. basta tambay lang and bonding.
Kahapon, first time kong nameet sina Viv at Clifford.
Kahapon, first time ko yatang kumain ng meatloaf mixed with tuna flakes with na may halong pula ng itlog (luto nina Paolo at Arjay).
Kahapon, naglaro ako ng badminton with Revin matapos ang mahabang panahon.
Kahapon, nakijammin ako with Paolo, astig maggitara.
Kahapon, naging "itay ko si Gian haha.
Kahapon, tinuruan ako ni Dwight maglaro ng Monopoly. first time yata akong maglaro nun (ay di yata) di ko na maalala.
Kahapon, halos alas-dose na ako nakauwi sa bahay.
Kahapon, saging at coke at dinner ko sa bahay kasi mejo busog pa ko pagdating dito.
Kahapon, nakita ko si Shiela, Karla, Ecki, at una ring nakausap si Rai, nakita ko rin si Julius.
Kahapon, dami nangyari eh. Masaya.
Kahapon, daming first time.
Gusto ko magboard!!!!!!!!!!! hehe
Gusto ko magbike!
Gusto ko magswim.
Yung pics ng cool out upload ko sa multiply.

2006-07-04T18:26:00.000+07:00

Mga bagay-bagay..

GOD IS GOOD!
Masaya na uli ako pare. Hehe.
Ang saya. Basta masaya ako kahit pagod masaya ako.

Metropolitan Pollution Day

Ngayon ay July 4, Philippine-American friendship day. Pero maliban dito, ngayon din yata ang Metropolitan Pollution Day (imbento ko lang yan) Metropolitan pollution. At impernez, sa Commonwealth lang yan ano pa kaya sa EDSA! Grabe! Anyways, may classroom evangelism sana kanina pero the professor dismissed the class earlier than expected. Pero di kami susuko, sa Friday na lang ulit. Hehe, late ako sa Bio class ko pero ayos lang hehe. Tumambay kasi ako haha. Grabe talaga polusyon sa Metro Manila. Owel, sana maupload yung pic na kinunan ko last Jun.27 pa yata, around 6:47 am yata yun while i was crossing over Commonwealth AIT area. I was at the footbridge when i got a chance to view such smog over Diliman area. Anyways, sana magawan ito ng paraan.

Food Trip

This week and last week too, I had some exciting food tripping. While I was walking towards Vinzons, I met Felix and he invited me to eat. I was about to tambay at CCC but he invited me to just hang out with him and eat. Edi pinagbigyan ko bait naman si Felix kahit madalas may topak haha. he lead me to Starbuck (you read it ryt) that's Starbuck as starbuk with a German u accent. Hehe. Woah! carinderia pala along Katipunan Avenue very near Narra dorm. Cool. Even some richie kids were eating their lunch there. Cool. At a very cheap price of just P20! you'll be full enough. We also ate with Inero wen we saw him. Nga pala, I ate adobo yata?

Before that, last Thursday, Jun 29, I had a chance to buy for the first time at A La Carte! haha sounds sossy? Ye it does but it's called that way coz it is actually a food cart where u can order lutong bahays. Coolness... Josh paid for my order, menudo and rice. Ate Joan paid bought us C2s hehe. Wala ako binayaran. haha.

Yesterday naman, after waking up quite early for a job appointment, yes naghahanap ako ng trabahong may kinalaman sa pagtuturo ng voice, I was told that the voice lessons are cancelled for that day for some unexpected reasons. So i just went to UP and did tambay. We had lunch at "Carte" again haha, as usual, cart foods... sa Fine Arts naman yun. I ordered Chiken urggggggh! nakalimutan ko yung tawag!!!!!!!! yung parang color yellow! basta yun! kaso 35 pesos. puede na.
Kanina, twas also my first time to eat at Math canteen. Cool! For just P32? yata, I had chiken ekek again, i dunno how to call it but they put sauce on it. Yummy! 2 rice pa ako! Cool!

Owel at least before I graduate, I can say that I got chances to eat at these UP food trippies... hehe. Foooooooooooodtreeeeeeep hehehehehehe.

2006-07-01T20:40:00.001+07:00

O yeah! I feel good now. This past week, the last week of June, I crossed the bridge of one part of my life. Nito ring mga nakaraang araw ay nailahad ko ang aking mga saloobin, kalungkutan, insecurities at iba pa. I consulted friends as well. I had "self-quieting" for contemplation. But only in God can you find real peace. You can find rest in Him. I wasa wanderer for the last few weeks. It seemed like I was losing direction, filled with insecurities and worries. I was thinking of regrets and wrong decisions Ive done before. I had wrong prioritizations. I thought that I wasted most of my time and didnt enjoy much of my time in school. The room was large but i didnt explore much. BUT NOW everything's almost getting back into place. IM LOSING MY OWN WAY AND LETTING GOD CONTROL EVERYTHING IN ME. Let me not follow my own way but His. I may never know all his plans and thoughts for me but I'm certain that wherever He'll put me at, it'll be for the better, actually, for the best! And i feel good and Im thankful to God for and about it! Great!

Yesterday, I and one of my pals in Campus Crusade for Christ were able to share the gospel to two peeps. One was not yet decided to pray the prayer of acceptance kay Christ.. but he dealt with us nicely. Sana one day, tumanggap din siya kay Jesus. The other one, in AS, after listening, this guy accepted Christ Jesus in his heart. Ang saya! After that, ganado na ako sa mga bagay-bagay. Things are getting back to its right track. Im on the right track. I super thank God for that. Ang saya!!!!!!!!!! hehe.

2006-06-29T21:44:00.000+07:00

Trip ko lang.
Saan ka nagstestay? bahay
Saan ka madalas tumambay within the campus? dati sa library tsaka mascomm, ngayon, sa CCC sa Vinzons
Saan ka madalas tumambay outside campus? sa bahay lang
Anong color ng damit ang madalas mong ulitin? white and green
Nagpapambahay ka ba pag napasok? ndi naman. mukhang pambahay lang minsan
Trip mong gawin pag malapit na ang deadline? magbabad sa harap ng pc
Kapag mainit ang ulo ng prof, ikaw ay... tahimik lang
Kapag bagsak ka sa exam, ikaw ay... nalulungkot pero nagpupursigi uli
Saan masarap pumunta pagkatapos ng exams? ay sa mall
Anong stuff ang madalas mong i-grocery? di ako naggogrocery eh. minsan kasama nanay ko.
Favorite food kapag “tambayan” time? kahit ano eh. candy hehe
Drink? tubig or C2
Anong madalas mong dala sa klase? bag na may notebook at pen tsaka readings
Nakatulog ka na ba during class hours? di pa yata
Nakapasok ka na ba ng hindi pa naliligo? oo naman pero mabango pa rin
Anong ginagawa mo pag tinawag ka ng prof at hindi mo alam ang sagot? smile or magtatangkang sumagot ng kung ano2
Na-eenjoy mo ba ang PE? naejoy ko ba PEs ko dati? mejo. yung badminton oo
Saang fast food/resto ka madalas? Jollibee
Saan ka madalas magpa-photocopy? sa mainlib o kaya sa SC or sa NCPAg
Sinong una mong crush sa campus? di ko na maalala
Sinong una mong kinainisan na classmate? cant remember
Rate you social life at school from 1-10? 10 being the highest, 7
Mag-su2mmer class ka ba? What subject? tapos na una at huling summer class sa undergrad ko, STS and NatSci
Saang building ang lungga mo na? Library o sa AS
Maingay ka ba sa class? Hindi naman
Kung mapapagalitan ka ng prof, yun ay dahil di ako nakapag-aral ng lesson para sa araw na iyon just like last friday
First impression sayo ng classmates mo? tahimik
Name 3 schools you went to: Flos, DHS and UP
Name 3 things in your purse/backpack: face towel, bottled water, ballpen
Name 3 things you do when you're really stressed: pray, sing, blog
Name 3 favorite fruits: ponkan, mango, oranges
Three of your Favorite foods: adobo, chinese foods, fresh veggies or fruits
Three things you are wearing right now: shirt, shorts and siempre panloob

T h e W h o s

Who is in the house with you? si mama at si ariel
What are you thinking about right now? e2
Whose house did you last go to? di ko maalala
Who do you sit next to in your 3rd period class? si mark
Who was the last person you told you loved? tatay ko

T h e W h e r e s

Where do you live? secret
Where is your phone? computer table namin
Where is/are your parent(s)? papa nasa abroad, mama nasa likod ko sa sala
Where do you sleep? sa room ko
When did you get the shirt you are wearing? sa teacher ko mula yata sa NSPC
Where is the last place you took a ride to? UP
Where in your house are you? living room. bakit???

T h e W h a t s

What was the last thing you ate? yung dinner, rice, tokwa, hotdog at chili pork
What color shirt are you wearing? white
What is the closest item near you that is blue? CPU
What do you like best about school? learning and friends na nakikilala
What is your favorite color? blue
What kind of surgery have you had? havent undergone such
What do you wear more; jeans or shorts? since im always at home, shorts. wen im at school, jeans
What is the last movie you watched? forgot?
Are u photogenic ? i dont think so?
What time do you go to bed ? grabe, minsan 12mn. sana maaga
What was the last thing you did before this ? chat?
Who's the one you always meet the most ? pamilya
Who's the person you'll call if you need help? God. tapos, magulang ko.
What's on your mind right now? answer this
What movie do u wanna watch now? superman
When was the last time you went out? kanina, sa school... literal na went out yun
What do you hate the most for now? sin
What do you do everyday besides eat & drink? pray, read, chat
Colors that make you happy? white, yellow, blue and green.... rainbow!!!!!!!! hahahahaha
Most fave thing? ang vague nga
Miss someone? hmmmm... tatay ko cgro... tsaka crush
Plan to buy something? yes. shoes or specs without lens haha
Are you satisfied with your life now? hirap sagutin ngayon
Do you like seafood? ok lang
Breakfast or dinner? breakfast
like chocolates? yes, kaso pimples and di maganda sa throat eh
Do you have a phone? yes
What's your favorite fast food? jollibee
Salty or sweet? sweet... moderate lang
Are you athletic? nope.
Do you have your own cell phone? yes
Do you care about getting good grades? yes
Do your parents give you enough privacy? yes naman
Would you ever wanna lose your best friends? Nope. siempre, i treasure them.
Do you tell your mom everything? almost
Can u sing or rap? both pero mas gusto ko sing

2006-06-27T21:52:00.000+07:00

Ilang araw na ito. Pabalik-balik. I just cant't help but to express it here sa blog coz if i wont do this, mahihirapan din ako. Isang MALAKING panghihinayang. Sana freshie ulit ako!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ang dami kong sinayang na pagkakataon. Ang dami kong pinalagpas na saya at mga taong nagpapahalaga. Bakit ko ikinulong ang aking sarili sa UP acads at bahay! bakit hindi ako sumali sa mga orgs na may saysay. Gusto ko lang talagang ulitin ang panahon. Wala naman akong magawa kundi tanggapin ang kahapon, mabuhay sa kasalukuyan at magpatuloy sa magandang hinaharap... umaasa.. pero bakit! bakit!!!!!!!! bakit ko sinayang ang freshie days ko!!!!!!!!!!! pati sophomore days ko :(( Gusto ko talaga inuntog sarili ko sa panghihinayang! Bakit hindi ako nagpakafriendly noon!!!!! Bakit itinuon ko ang sarili ko sa Concert Chorus, Singing Ambassadors at mga performing froups na yan!!!!!! May natutuhan naman ako pero di ko naman tinuloy eh! SANA INUNA KO ANG CHRISTIAN ORGS! ANG SVCF na noon pa lamang first year ay nainvite na ako ng isang kaklase sa Fil 25 pero di ko na maaala kung bakit di ko sineryoso. Sayang, sana nakinig ako nuon at sumali. Sana rin sumali na ako nuon sa Campus Crusade for Christ. Bakit ko inuna ang performing groups. I have nothing against them pero sana inuna kong maghanap ng tahanan na makakasama ko ang mga kapatid sa Panginoon. (Napahinto ako). Ang dami ko na pa lang nasabi. Naguon nga 5th year na ako. Sana may panahon pa. Sa kayanin ko. Alam ko kaya pa... God please use me in UP or wherever you want me to share Your living, moving and powerful word.

PS. Sana maintindihan ng mga tao na di naman ako suplado. Nahihirapan na ako please. Mabait naman ako ah! Ngumingiti naman ako... minsan. Kasi awkward naman kung ngingitian mo lahat ng classmate mo. Pag di mo nagitian baka isipin suplado ka at mayabang. Haaaaaaay.... mabait ako huhuhu. Mukha lang suplado. :( Lets be friends!!!!!!!!!!

2006-06-24T13:08:00.000+07:00

Draw Me Closer Lord... Never Let Me Go..
Lead Me... I'm losing my own way now.

Draw me close to You,
Never let me go.
I lay it all down again
To hear You say that I’m Your friend.
You are my desire,
No one else will do,
‘Cause nothing else could take Your place,
To feel the warmth of Your embrace.
Help me find the way,
Bring me back to You. You’re all I want.
You’re all I ever needed.
You’re all I want.
Help me know You are near.

Im just not perfect. I am weak. I am so weak. Di ko kaya mag-isa. Pag mag-isa ako sobrang nadodown na ako. Sa mga nakalipas na araw at minuto... tila isang lumulutang na hangin lamang ako na ginagawa ang dapat gawin pero di ko magawa ang dapat gawin. magulo. Magulo takbo ng isip ko. Gusto ko ilabas lahat ng lungkot ko, problema, sama ng loob... lahat. Hindi ko rin minsan maintindihan ang sarili ko. Halo-halo. iba-iba. Sa pamilya, sa sarili, sa lovelife, sa future.. sa pag-aaral, sa career... sa lahat! Parang lutang ako.
Pero alam ko ang dahilan nito. Dahil parang nalalayo na ako sa Kanya. Lagi kong sinusunod ang sarili ko. Laging gusto ko ang ginagawa ko at nasa least priorities na ang aking Master. Kung gayon, nagiging ako na ang master ko na MALING-MALI. Si God ang dapat na MAster ko kaya nga Lord. Pero bakit ako ganito. Nasaan na ba ako? Nasaan?

I am simply weak. Please, to you who reads this, please pray for me. All I pray for now is that I could get back to His loving arms. Alam ko namang di Niya ako binibitawan. Tila ako lang ang pumipiglas. Lord, gusto ko na bumalik.

2006-06-23T21:01:00.001+07:00

I want to write sana about so many things but I'm so sleepy and tired. Daming nasa isipan ko.

2006-06-23T21:01:00.000+07:00

I want to write sana about so many things but I'm so sleepy and tired. Daming nasa isipan ko.

2006-06-22T10:20:00.000+07:00

Sense

Here I go again. Scribbling words, gathering thoughts, building sensible ideas and construing things around me hoping to make somehow a well-thought post. Haha. Kailan pa naging formal writing portion ang blog ko. Uy, minsan pormal ako magpost dito ah! hehe. Anyways, perhaps, I haven't gathered my thoughts well enough yet so I think, I better write later. If I still can. Oh well, I'm always in front of the monitor juggling stuff and scrambling points to make a nice post. Baka mamaya, matino-tino na ako haha.

2006-06-21T19:30:00.000+07:00

Solitude

Solitude may be a nice chance for having a bright encounter with the Creator through prayer and meditation. Bright in a sense that the worries and all dull predicaments of this world are being set aside and the upliftment of one's soul is being done through meditation. In a secret quiet and serene place, you may find solitude. Pouring out of the heart and the breathing of one's soul.
At times, I feel lonely. In a negative sense. Now, I think that's not just solitude. The absence of gregarious Aaron happens when I feel too melancholic but not being pessimistic. These two words are different. During this silent reveries, I feel in between: minsan, gusto ko mag-isa pero minsan, gusto ko may kasama at makausap. I sometimes just can't understand myself.
Yesterday, I was filled with both, solitude (as I describe it as the positive) and lonely in a negative manner. Now, let me just clarify that being lonely is not always negative but in my case ysterday, I felt that way.

I don't want to go into details but all along, I felt so lonely. I texted some friends if they're still in UP to hang-out or just lie down at Sunken or sit back and have light but sensible conversations. Exchange and sharing of thoughts. But no one was replying. I guess they all left. So there I was walking toward anywhere. Watching people pass by and barkadas with their happy company. Actually, it was a time given for me to ponder too of some simple things that I take for granted like sufficient time to read His word, or study my lessons or just simply enjoy what I have. It may seem too simple for some but we sometimes, we just don't see the significance and the worth of every second that is being blessed to us by our Creator. We do what we want and after all these, we still clamor for more fun. We become "gluttons" and greed for more and anything we may have. Woah, I'm getting far! But its something nice to ponder of, mind you dude :).
In the absence of a company to giggle with or just laugh and have fun with, I felt the bright side of being alone (my, I'm not talking bout being single haha). Now that solitude amid people together brings me to think that its also a beautiful moment to construct my thoughts and gather them and just move on and walk happily.. I was at the Sunken wen I got a chance to consider a panoramic view of blending colors of the vast skies. Awww... now dusk is not just about closing the day, its a time to wonder of God's creation and artwork as manifested on the woderful blend of dusk colors. How awesome is the Lord!
And so I shouldn't have felt so lonely in a negative sense but look at the bright side of sole moments. God intended it, I believe so. I walked head to Central to go home and as I was walking, I turned the music on with my phone's loud speaker and just enjoyed listening to Christian music. Sa jeep, sarap ng tulog ko, tulo laway walang biro haha sana di nakita ng mga pasahero.

2006-06-19T20:10:00.000+07:00

My hair. That girl. And the alitaptaps.

orayt! i have three main points (naks ang pormal), uhmm... three stories to tell.

Ok, I'll start 'bout my hair. I had hilites yesterday. Haha, twas my first time ever to have my hair hilited. guess the color... supposedly, brown but it turned out to be a lil blonde close to golden canary. But mom said it will become brown after about three days so il just wait. Its nice. haha.. a lil catchy. Alryt, i went to school earlier to have some things get accomplished, well, thank God halos nagawa ko naman lahat hehe :) When ma friends saw me and my "hey-look-at-this" hair, woah! they would say almost the same comment! Guess what? "Aaron, mukha kang Korean, koreano, foreigner tho i say to some, "di ba mukhang badjao? haha." I guess its because my chinky eyes complement my hair and since Korean thing is trendy, they associate me to being Korean than Chinese or Japanese haha. Some would say mukhang Chinese nga, e totoo namang may Chinese blood ako pero parang napunta lahat sa pagiging chinky ng eyes at smooth ng skin (naku! hahahaha) kaso aminado akong kayumanggi ako at thankful naman ako sa pagiging kayumanggi. I'm not that attractive or as what a friend told me, Im not the conventional type, but I believe I'm wonderfully and fearfully made by my Creator. :) I was just flattered when they say to me "mukhang Korean" not because I dont want to look Filipino but because it's nice that I can adjust myself to any nationality look or appearance coz of how I groom myself complementing my looks. Nakakatuwa. Minsan mukha akong Chinese, minsan Korean, pero siempre Pinoy ako.

I was walking toward SVCF tambayan when a girl interrupted me and gave me a card. I was a bit curious, I opened it quick wond'rin what it was. And oh! she was the girl selling those sweets (pastillas and macapuno etc...) last summer. She told us then that she's getting a portion of her allowance from the profit she could get from those sweets. Well, actually ang mahal kasi ang liit pero 20 pesos na. I had to buy na rin kasi nahihirapan akong tumanggi and snce maganda naman purpose at papupuntahan, I bought at least one pack of ube sweets. Sana nakatulong yun sa kanya and God will do the rest... :).

I was walking head to our home sweet home wen I saw those fireflies sparkling their "oh-so-wow" and amazing umiilaw na watever haha! Ang saya tingan kasi bihira na tayo makakita ng ganun nowadays kasi ayon sa pag-aaral at obserbasyon, ang mga lugar na polluted at crowded at di na masyado makikitaan ng fireflies. And there they were, enjoying the quiet talahiban along the road. I could also feel the relaxing atmosphere here in our village. Nakakatuwa talaga ang karunungan ni God, He created the fireflies and all creation with its special purpose. naniniwala akong nilikha ni God ang mga maliliit na nilikhang ito para sa tuwing nalulungkot ka, makikita mo silang lumilipad ng simple at tila nag-eenjoy na pailawin ang kanilang mga umiilaw na meron sa katawan... (e di ko alam kung anong umiilaw sa kanila e haha sa liit nilang yun at kayliksi pa, hirap nila mahuli).

God is good... all the time :)

2006-06-18T19:54:00.000+07:00

Ganda nito :)

1. Give God what's right..... not what's left.
2. Man's way leads to hopeless end ......
God's way leads to an endless hope .
3. A lot of kneeling will keep you in good standing.
4. He who kneels before God can stand before anyone.
5. In the sentence of life, the devil may be a comma, but never let him be the period.
6. Don't put a question mark where God puts a period.
7. Are you wrinkled with burden? Come to the church for a face-lift.
8. When praying, don't give God instructions...... just report for duty.
9. We don't change God's message......His message changes us.
10. The church is prayer-conditioned.
12 When God ordains, He sustains.
13. Plan ahead......It wasn't raining when Noah built the ark.
14. Most people want to serve God, but only in an advisory position.
15. Suffering from truth decay?
Brush up on your Bible.
16. Exercise daily ...... walk with the Lord.
17. Never give the devil a ride......
he will always want to drive.
18. Nothing else ruins the truth like stretching it.
19. Compassion is difficult to give away because it keeps coming back.
20. He who angers you controls you.
21. Worry is the darkroom in which negatives can develop.
22. Give Satan an inch & he'll be a ruler.
23. Be ye fishers of men..... You catch them & He'll clean them.
24. God doesn't call the qualified,
He qualifies the called.

Now take 60 seconds and give this a shot! Let's just see if Satan stops this one. All you do is:
1. Simply say a small prayer for the person you know who is in real need of a miracle, e.g. LORD, God, bless this person in whatever it is that You know he or she may be needing this day....
2. Then forward to relatives/friends.
Within hours people would have prayed, and you would have caused a multitude of people to pray to God for other people.Then sit back and watch the power of God work in your life for doing the thing that you know He loves.What we do in life echoes in eternity....

2006-06-18T12:50:00.000+07:00

Cords

some vocabs:
construe- interpret
elicit-draw out, extract, take out from, derive
eloquent- fluent and powerful use of language
discreet- careful, cautious, considerate, diplomatic, discerning, guarded, judicious
discrepancy- conflict, difference, disagreement, disparity, variation

woah, i really need to enrich my vocab now. For a long time, well almost four years, I have been much inclined to the sumptuous use and enrichment of my Filipino vocabulary o ang pagpapayaman sa aking paggamit ng ating wika because that's one of my course's necessary element to better understand some Filipino academic and cultural terms that are more relevant in Philippine Studies. Well, being a member of the Journalism Club calls me to practice my English vocabulary as well but it doesn't limit myself to that because I can also use it and make use of fluent English in the future. It may be beneficial anyway, not just "may be" i think, it is indeed beneficial.

Uhmm.. it is Fathers' Day today. Well, this noon, we called papa via celphone and greeted him what fathers expect to hear "Papa happy fathers' day, i love you po. and God bless po pa :)" Awww... We had somke sort of family problem but it ended with inspirational lessons to share. I want people to know that no matter how big the conflict might be in the family, as long as there is love, the family can't be broken. God is the foundation of our family so the enemy can't destroy us and break the cords of blessings that God showered us and tied us with in. I thank and praise the Lord for we have passed through such a quake in the family. It just shows that with Christ as the foundation stone, we really can't be torn down and fallen apart into ruins of hatred and disunity but otherwise, a family strengthened by the grace and love of God through Christ Jesus. His Spirit inspires us to do all we can by God's grace to uplift each of our family's and loved one's soul including our brothers and sisters in Christ and bless them through that.

It has been nice to blog again. I missed doing this.

2006-06-16T18:19:00.000+07:00

Isang survey sa friendster... na-cutan lang ako
1. hindi masarap ang hamburger kapag... walang ketchup
2. hindi kompleto ang araw ko kapag... di kumanta
3. hindi masaya ang party kapag walang...music
4. ang pamilya ay d masaya pag...nagaaway
5. ikaw ay masaya kapag...kasama ko pamilya at friends
6. masarap manood ng sine kapag...kasama ang friends
7. iiyak ka kapag nawala...may nawalang mahal
8. masarap mabuhay kapag...may inspirasyon
9. madalas kaming magaway ng kapatid ko kc...minsan makulit
10. gusto kong magpunta sa...Palawan
11. hindi masaya ang inuman kapag wlang...chibog
12. masarap maging lalake kc...may authority (feminists might react)
13. umiinom ako ng beer kc..(ay di ako umiinom ng beer)
14. sinabi mo sa isang tao na may feelings ka sakanya para...
15. hindi ka nag resign ngaung taon na2 kc...wala naman ako pagreresignan
16. hindi kompleto ang barkada kapag...walang tagapagpatawa
17. boring ang buhay kapag...walang music
18. masakit magmahal kapag...(ganun talaga)
19. malungkot ang buhay kapag...walang irog
20. sinasagutan ko to dahil...nagustuhan ko wala lang hihi

2006-06-13T22:14:00.002+07:00

First Day of School and The End of My Enlistment Hassle.

Woah! Its been a tiring day but i enjoyed it. Its our first day of classes. I slept around 1:50 am and woke up at round 5am to prepare for school! My first class very tuesday is Socio 10. I came half an hour late and the pretty (you read it ryt, mam pretty talaga e) professor was already explaining some things bout the course.. Wala na nga lang seats so i had to get a chair pa from the other room and carry it into our room. Tapos patapos na rin pala! Anyway, she was nice naman. The next thing i had to do was to ask for prerog in Bio 1. I had to change kasi my schedule from MTH to TF kasi alangan namang Bio lang ang aatenan ko every MTh e yung thesis naman namin e once lang or minsan lang magmimeet so mas ok talaga pag TF no? I never expected that it would be Maam Jacinto who will (though accdng to her is not yet of finality) handle that morning class. Nagraffle pa ng IDs para sa prerog because she taught that she could still accommodate some few students. But in the end, nagkaproblem. Actually, nung nagraraffle pala, we were given an edge to get slots for the 11:30 class. I didnt get it because I prefer maam jacinto coz they say shes nice and if I grab the 11:30 slot, i still dont know the prof e kung si tabbada yun! naku! hehe. So i just decided to stay in maam Jacinto's class til dismissal. Pero in the end, we were just encouraged to find other professors who would accept us.
I then proceeded to my next class which I sure am enlisted. Spanish 10 CAL 504! ang taas naman ng room! Pero oki lang, While looking for a seat, Max called me. "Aaron!" then she offered me a seat! hehe. so yun classmates kami. Our professor did not come to class yet. So we just left.
Pumunta na lang kami ni Max sa UP Theater expecting that our fellow JCers are there. But no! They were inCMC making tamabay kasi they still dont have the materials and all for the freshie thingies. When we saw them, ayun, edi kumustahan. We headed to UP theater after that. But i left din agad coz I still had to ask for prerog. Walked through Lagoon towards AS then to Bio. Fast forward. Si Maam Amparado yung prof and i asked for prerog but she didnt accept us tho she encouraged us to ask Maam Herrera or Sir Tabbada. I met someone who was also trying to ask for a prerog. We went to IB office and confirmed who'd be teaching on the 1pm timeslot. We were told na si maam Herrera nga magtuturo at ayun nagpaprerog agad kami sa room nia. Ang saya! ang bait pa niya. Sobrang thankful talaga ako kay God as in kasi si maam Herrera yung madalas na inaadvise na kunin kasi namimigay nga ng uno. and look! See how good the Lord is: nakakuha ako ng TF slot sa Bio, nasa magandang oras at mahusay na prof pa. Galing ni Lord! So there. Yung iba hirap na hirap pa sa kakaprerog ako tapos na! Saya! :) Pero sana matapos na rin ang hirap ng mga nagpreprerog. I think, part din yun ng pagtetrain sa UP students na maging makulit sa tamang paraan. Basta! So ayun. After nung Bio ko, naglakad ako papuntang NCPAG at ang aga dumating. Ako ang una sa room. Naantok ako.
Anyweiz! Salamat talaga kay God at tapos na ang hassle ng enlistment! TFS ang sched ko! Saya! :) God works for those who love and obey Him :). Great, wise, mighty, yang tatlong yan wen i read His Word kanina ang masasabi ko bout God. Ayun. :)

2006-06-11T21:05:00.000+07:00

His Beloved Son

A wealthy man and his son loved to collect rare works of art. They had everything in their collection, from Picasso to Raphael. They would often sit together and admire the great works of art.

When the conflict broke out, the son went to war. He was very courageous and died in battle while rescuing another soldier. The father was notified and grieved deeply for his only son.

About a month later, just before Christmas, there was a knock at the door. A young man stood at the door with a large package in his hands.

He said, "Sir, you don't know me, but I am the soldier for whom your son gave his life. He saved many lives that day, and he was carrying me to safety when a bullet struck him in the heart and he died instantly. He often talked about you, and your love for art." The young man held out this package. "I know this isn't much. I'm not really a great artist, but I think your son would have wanted you to have this."

The father opened the package. It was a portrait of his son, painted by the young man. He stared in awe at the way the soldier had captured the personality of his son in the painting. The father was so drawn to the eyes that his own eyes welled up with tears. He thanked the young man and offered to pay him for the picture. "Oh, no sir, I could never repay what your son did for me. It's a gift."

The father hung the portrait over his mantle. Every time visitors came to his home he took them to see the portrait of his son before he showed them any of the other great works he had collected.

The man died a few months later. There was to be a great auction of his paintings. Many influential people gathered, excited over seeing the great paintings and having an opportunity to purchase one for their collection.

On the platform sat the painting of the son. The auctioneer pounded his gavel. "We will start the bidding with this picture of the son… Who will bid for this picture?"

There was silence.

Then a voice in the back of the room shouted, "We want to see the famous paintings… Skip this one."

But the auctioneer persisted. "Will somebody bid for this painting. Who will start the bidding? $100? $200?"

Another voice angrily, "We didn't come to see this painting. We came to see the Van Gogh's, the Rembrandt's. Get on with the real bids!"

But still the auctioneer continued, "The son! The son! Who'll take the son?
Finally, a voice came from the very back of the room. It was the longtime gardener of the man and his son. "I'll give $10 for the painting." Being a poor man, it was all he could afford.

"We have $10, who will bid $20?"

"Give it to him for $10. Let's see the masters."

"$10 is the bid, won't someone bid $20?"

The crowd was becoming angry. They didn't want the picture of the son.

They wanted the more worthy investments for their collections.

The auctioneer pounded the gavel. "Going once, twice, SOLD for $10!"

A man sitting on the second row shouted, "Now let's get on with the collection!"

The auctioneer laid down his gavel. "I'm sorry, the auction is over."

"What about the paintings?"

"I am sorry. When I was called to conduct this auction, I was told of a secret stipulation in the will. I was not allowed to reveal that stipulation until this time. Only the painting of the son would be auctioned. Whoever bought that painting would inherit the entire estate, including the paintings.

The man who took the son gets everything!"

God gave His son 2,000 years ago to die on the cross. Much like the auctioneer, His message today is: "The son, the son, who'll take the son?"

Because, you see, whoever takes the Son gets everything.

"FOR GOD SO LOVED THE WORLD HE GAVE HIS ONLY BEGOTTEN SON, WHO SO EVER BELIEVETH IN HIM SHALL NOT PERISH BUT HAVE ETERNAL LIFE." John 3:16

THAT'S LOVE!

God Bless.

2006-06-10T14:20:00.000+07:00

Upon This Rock

by Sandi Patti

album: Finest Moments (1990),
More Than Wonderful (1991)

When others see with earthly eyes
Just what they want to see
You will see the things that never die
You will know and recognize
By simple child-like faith
The priceless truth that
Others will deny.

When others say I'm just a man
Who likes to dream His dreams
When others call a miracle a myth
You'll listen for eternity
In moments as they pass
And see with spirit eyes
What others miss.

Upon this rock I'll build My kingdom
And on this rock forever and ever it shall stand
And all the powers of Hell itself
Shall never more prevail against it
For Satan's thrones are built on sinking sand
Upon this rock I'll build My kingdom
And on this rock forever and ever it shall stand
Upon this rock of revelation
I'll build a strong and mighty nation
And it shall stand the storms of time
Upon this rock.

If in a simple carpenter
You see the Son of God
If you would chose to lose
When you could win
If you would give your life away
For nothing in return
Then you are where
My kingdom will begin.

2006-06-10T13:49:00.000+07:00

O Lord, Our Lord, How majestic is Your Name in All the Earth!

How Majestic Is Your Name
More Than Wonderful
Sandi Patti

O, Lord, our Lord
How majestic is Your Name in all the earth
O, Lord, our Lord
How majestic is Your Name in all the earth

O, Lord, we praise Your Name
O Lord, we magnify Your Name
Prince of peace, mighty God
O, Lord God Almighty

In His Love
by Sandi Patti
album: More Than Wonderful (1991)

In His Love
In His love, there’s a place where you can always hide away
In His love, there’s no need to run, no need to be afraid.
If the world’s a sea of trouble, you can always rise above
If you know that you are safely, In His love.
In His love, where all pain and sorrow quickly fade away
In His love, there’s a bright tomorrow just beyond today
If your heart is filled with sorrow, if it’s all you can think of
Still there’ll be a new tomorrow, In His love
Chorus
His love is never far away, yet sometimes hard to see
If we would take the time to pray,
His love would flow through you and me
In His love, there’s a place where you can watch the world go by
In His love, there’s no need to hurry, everything’s on time
When the world’s a sea of trouble, you can always rise above
If you know that you are safely, In His love
In His love, there’s a place where you can always hide away
In His love, there’s no need to run, no need to be afraid.
If your heart is filled with sorrow, if it’s all you can think of
Still there’ll be a new tomorrow, In His love

2006-06-09T21:23:00.000+07:00

PRAISE HIM! ! ! ! ! ! ! just this week, i was advised by the college secretary's office that i should maintain my good grades. Basta magandang balita, nakakaexcite! Yeah!!!!!!!!! by faith in God and more aral, naniniwala ako maabot ko yun! Yes. I do believe.

2006-06-09T14:03:00.000+07:00

haaaay!!!! im home na! Praise God ive gotten PA slots already. I got a course on administrative law and the nakuha ko rin yung 151. Yung Bio ko aasikasuhin ko next week. Yung Socio ko ok daw yung prof. Haay... God is great talaga! Ang saya. Im almost done with this enlistment hassle pero di pa talaga tapos... bio na lang hehe.. papalit cgro ako sched depende prof eh. Ayun... pahinga ko muna mga mata ko... magandang adlaw!

2006-06-05T17:46:00.000+07:00

Education thing...
Whew! grabe! Watching 24 Oras, I was dismayed by the news on the shortage of classrooms and other "not-new-to-us" problems in the country's education system. Quantity of students is becoming a problem now especially in public schools to the expense of good (quality) education. Sadly, most public schools are at the fore of these education quality degradation. I graduated from a public school. And I'm one of those students who transferred from a private school to a less comfy environment of a public school. However, it wasnt hard for me to adjust coz at that time, I even requested mama to transfer me coz it was kinda difficult na rin for me to go with the flow of my richie rich and pasosyal classmates. I even enjoyed the company of bright students in my new school. I was in section one so we were somehow a homegeneous group, the cream of the school so were given attention. And Coolness. I dont think all public schools are trashy in education but apparently, given the overpopulation thing, degradation of quality might be compensated. Kawawa naman yung mga bata. Good thing pa rin kasi we Filipinos really value education. Sana nga lang, the government will give a bit more priority to education.

2006-06-04T12:20:00.000+07:00

2006-06-04T00:52:00.000+07:00

Random Thoughts etc...

Whew! I just browsed a former classmate's blog. I ddnt read between the lines but I saw in her the willingness to get that diploma. Yeah, life in the university is not that easy. Well, not so tough. Especially here in what many would consider as the bastion of quality education and home of the Filipino escolares. But having the perseverance and the will to reach for your goals are good enuf to get through this long journey. But i guess its not all that. Even if you have all athe guts yet don't have God in your life... expect the fall, pare. You really cant get over everthing.

Oh well, i really have to cut this short. Its 1:58 am. I should sleep earlier these next couple of months or weeks at least to be able to recover from my insomnia or so thing haha. I dont think I have an insomnia. Its just that I dont get regular hours of sleep coz of the net or well... I guess its just the late night habit of contemplating and all. Im not that sleepy yet coz i had a lil sleep earlier. But i'll try to sleep now. Kailangan ko bawiin ang weight ko. Ang payat ko na. And if i wont do this, waaaaaa! di na ko cute sa first sem hahaha! Oh well, punchline. Joke! Good am! yeah... God is good all the time!

I wrote this kaninang mga 2am na pero nagkaproblem so I'll just post it here anyway kahit umaga na. hehe... tanghali na actually. :)

2006-06-02T20:25:00.000+07:00

Top:
God
the faith, church, ministry
family
friends
and "neighbors" youth
self

Stuff: (mixed na e2)
music, microphone
painting,crushes
listening,cars
ice cream,bicycle
chocolate,books
banana split, radio
mango, cd
celphone, cappuccino
adobo, tiramizu
academics
chat
blog
writing
frnech fries
chickenjoy
kfc chicken
pasta
salad

2006-06-02T15:01:00.000+07:00

hmmm....
for days, ive been spending my time, actually this vacation break, sa kakachat, friendster, and all these net stuff... halos everyday, hindi bumababa sa 5 oras ang naitatagal ko sa computer. Not enuf to be called addicted coz i know there are worse peeps who stay longer in front of the pc or if they rest, sandali lang. Im not that worse coz i still know how to stop and when to relax my eyes. minsan nga lang di ko na nagagawa ...haay... kaya minsan din sumasakit na ulo ko pero ano naman gagawin ko homebody ako... hindi ako mahilig gumimik at iba pa... kung may bicycle sana e di araw araw siguro nasa labas ako. haha! pero lam mo yun, mali pa rin na buong araw nasa tapat ako ng monitor... hoi, aaron... gumawa ka ng sumthing worth your time na di ka lang neenjoy, natututo ka pa at di naabuse ang "temple of the Holy Spirit". wow this is a rebuke at paalala sa sarili ko. hehe tama tama dapat bawasan ko na ang laging nasa tapat ng pc.

tagal ko rin di nagblog ah... two days ba or three... matagal na yun para sa akin. hehe
oh well, cant think of any interesting stuff... though maraming kaintere-interest e no?

2006-05-30T23:13:00.000+07:00

Mixed Rice

mejo masakit na ang kaliwang braso ko. Namamaga. Ive been working out twice or thrice na yata. And i was not advised and actually i almost forgot about it... about my ortho history. I had a bone fracture when i was about 11 or 12. So thats almost 8 years ago and i almost forgot about it. Now, its quite aching. Namamaga siya actually. haaay... If this will get worse, mama might bring me to the orthopedic center in Banaue Avenue. The last tym ive been there was wen my fiber glass sumthing (i forgot how they call that fracture mending thingy) was removed off my lower arm. Haay... its all coming back, its all coming back to me now... haha!

hey... ive been browsing my former classmates' friendster account. My classmates in FCI. When i see their profile and see their courses and achievements, minsan i just ponder eh. Why? Yung iba, nurse, political scientist, premed... etc... but most of them are from UST. I am from UP.
But my course... Philippine Studies... why do some look at it as if its sumthing trashy or confined to the academe alone! No its not though it seems to be. After all, my course is not as popular as the conventional nursing, engineering and computer technology stuff... Minsan iniisip ko pa rin why God put me here. I convince myself that i have a good future here coz i can be either a writer or a diplomat considering that my major is Malikhaing Pagsulat and my cognate is Public Administration. I can apply as a writer or get into the Foreign Affairs office. I see myself more of a diplomat. I try to convince myself that I'll have a good future here BUT im wrong. I should not convince myself BECAUSE GOD HAS ALREADY PLANNED A GOOD FUTURE FOR ME. No need to convince myself. SIGURADO NA E. Its just for me to look forward too and obey Him that i may gain that great future. If i swerve to another path, i might get lost. Yes, Indeed, God is my director and leader. He leads m to perfect pastures. If only i should learn to follow and obey Him always.
I may not be a doctor or architect, but I'm happy that slowly but surely, God has His best plan for me. And I'm grateful He does great things in my life now and forever. I'll just make a free fall sa kanyang ever caring arms. I know di ako maliligaw, di ako masasayang. Look aaron... look forward. Kasama mo ang Diyos :)

2006-05-29T16:54:00.000+07:00

I just feel so sad.

2006-05-28T19:13:00.002+07:00

things na masarap gawin ngayon:

magbakasyon sa isang kuwebang may maliwanag na sikat ng araw.
kumain ng pizza
magswimming sa pool
magshop ng shoes
magpunta sa beach at maligo
uminom ng buko
magswimming habang umuulan
magpunta sa manila bay at magpahangin
magcruise!!!!!
kausapin ang mahal
magwork-out habang naeenjoy ang pagwowork-out (kasi mahirap)
magswimming ulit talaga (this time may kasamang scuba)
magfood-trip

teka ok din yung...

magpunta sa poor communities at yakapin sila
sharing to them the love of God
makipaglaro sa mga bata
makipagtawanan sa mga batang makukulit

at gusto ko rin lumipad... lumipad...

hindi man ako makalipad. alam kong aakyat ako sa ulap sa hinaharap. pramis mangyayari yun pare. mangyayari yun. serioso ako. to be with Jesus sa ulap... at papuntang heaven... kaegsayt!

chat chat chat chat!!!!!!

2006-05-27T20:17:00.000+07:00

J-Light Youth Outdoor Fellowship

konti lang kami kanina pero masaya naman. Ang mga umattend kanina ay sina: Ptr. Ferdie, Ptr. Reny, Ate Fidest, Joshua, Joy, Yner, Kuya Chito, Cheriss, Marco, Unique, Essej, Smart, Charity, Kuya Jeff, Arlou, Alyan at ako. Masaya naman. Ang ganda ng place. Yun nga lang, parang disappointed din ako sa sarili ko kasi di ko masyado naayos yung event na ito samantalang ako ang nagpresentang magorganize nito few months ago. Maraming factors e like akala ko di na tuloy, tapos some money constraints pero not actually that, minor lang yun kasi the Lord provides sufficiently naman. Sa susunod, akin nang pagbubutihin at higit na magiging committed pa.

2006-05-26T22:56:00.000+07:00

nakalimutan ko pala sabihin!!!! isheshare ko ang maaari kong ibahagi. Sana yung essay na sinulat ko di manatili sa mga pahina ng pinablish nilang book or sumthing bagkus (talagang bagkus yan hehe) ay maisagawa ang mga ideas na aking inilagay. Ang kopya po ng sanaysanay na iyon ay nasa May archive ng aking blog po :) sana'y maenjoy mo dude :) kailangan ko na umalis. 6 am ang kitaan sa church tom para sa J-Light youth outdoor fellowship eh :)

Ito yung mamang may talent...
ito naman ako... oi parang bata lang sa tabi tabi hehe

2006-05-26T21:37:00.000+07:00

Our God is Faithful: Im Forever Grateful :)

its nighttime. im so glad of God's unending faithfulness! overwhelmed. This day has been a busy one. Mama woke me around 8 but got up after 10 minutes or a quarter. Head to SM Megamall. On the way there, we were not sure of the routes and so... ayun, natrapik kami nang husto. There's no U-turn along that area and so we reached Makati! wahahaha! From Mandaluyong!!!!! haha! grabe. Sweating tropical heat! Mama told me to ride MRT na lang but i was worried coz mama was so tensed na. She's not used to travel through unfamiliar places or routes :P. Muntik na kami maubusan ng gas along the EDSA so we looked for a gas station. malapit na sa Belair kami nakapaggas. We asked the kind gasoline boy how to get back to EDSA going to Megamall. Nakaikot kami taking Jupiter road then Paseo de Roxas yata, not sure. It was actually 10:40 wen I reached Megamall. Pinauna na ako ni mama bumaba kasi di namin alam kung saan ang entrance to park our car. So pumasok na ako and went to Megatrade hall where the awarding ceremonies had just started. Ayun. There were few seats (coz we arrived late). By the way, I just wore a simple collared shirt, yung lagi ko sinusuot sa church tska sa UP, one of my two maayos-ayos na pants, and rubber shoes. Simple lang damit ko. I prefer wearing my fashion and kung comfortable naman ako, why not. Di naman out of fashion. matino naman. desente naman. and cute naman ako :)) joke! nasa nagdadala yan. Medyo nagsmart smart look na lang ako at ininglish-inglish ko ang ibang tao haha! pasosyal :)) hahaha. Ayun. Before getting in to the hall, nagCR muna ako to wash ma face para pogi. haha. Ayun... I went in and naabutan kong nagsasalita ang director ng World Bank Philippines. Therefore, nalate din nagstart ang program kasi looking at the programme, the director would give the opening remarks. After that, Marites Vitug, isang kagalang-galang na editor, announced the finalists, first sa slogan and after which was por de essay category :). I was satnding at the back and mama texted me na nasa megatrade na daw siya pero ndi kami magkita hehe. E malapit na yung pagtawag sa mga finalist sa essay category, may hawak akong magazine nun e tsaka bottled water. I asked that kind guy beside me to hold the magazines kasi tatawagin na ako. Then I moved forward closer to the stage. Three finalists were already called. and I was beside the stage thinking wild stuff: na baka ndi matawag pangalan ko hahahaha!!!!! kasi apat lang kami finalists. and I think I was the youngest not just among us in that category but among all the finalists of that event!!! woooh! sarap ng feeling ng ganun! ang bata ko pa!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha! ayun... Natawag naman ako and I went up the stage. Even before i went up, it was already announced that there would be no 1st prize for any reasonor so. Probably, none among the finalists met the jurors' standard criteria. And the winners were: the third place was announced. And the second prize goes to "Balanse sa Lipunan" waaaaaaahhhhhh!!!!!! sa tuwing natataon ako sa ganoong karanasan na pipili ng panalo or qualified (kasi sanay na ako pag nag-oaudition sa singing contests haha), hinahanda ko na ang sarili ko. I won!!!!!!! wow! 20k! certificate tropgy and a new celphone. Woooh! sarap ng feeling. God is great! God is so good. Ayun, habang pinipicturan ako, ngiti talaga ako to the highest level haha, ang daming camera. hehe. Ayun... nakapagshake-hands ako sa mga representatives from World Bank, DSWD and other organizations. As I walked down the stage and headed to the back, one of the coordinators congratulated me and offered me a seat kasi buti na lang kasi wala akong upuan. tamang tama naman at dumating si mama. Umupo na kami dun. And nakinig! ang saya!!!!!!!!!! :) Kinongratulate ako ng iba din. But guys, lahat ng praises, I give to God!!!!! he deserves it coz without Him, wla akong magagawa talaga :) I keep thanking God for giving me this skill of writing. Im not boasting of anything. I boast in the name of the Lord pare :) ang dami niyang ipinagkaloob na talento sa akin. Hindi man ako kagwapuhan (hahaha) at habulin (ha... ha... ha... ha...ha..), binigyan ako ng maraming bagay na dapat kong ipagpasalamat sa Panginoon. sarap ng feeling... ay Lord! salamat at ikaw ang Ama ko :) haaay...
brrrrrrrrrrrppppppphhhh choo chooo.... fast forward na! chibugan na!!!!!!!!!! pare ang daming food. sarap! buffet eh! may spinach casserole with oh-so-nice taste hehe, korean barbecue i think... kasi lasang korean barbecue... enuf reason to conclude that it is indeed korean haha, uhmm... shrimp rice, pasta, di ako kumuha ng veggie salad, fruits platito with raspberry cheezzzzzzzzecake! talap! busok. basta dami food eh. sarap magfud trip pare! sarap mabusog libre pa! hehe. Nagsign din ako dun sa banner and umikot ikot kami ni mama sa exhibit. And got freebies hehe ang daming freebies na magazines. hehehehehe.... saya level na toh! hehe.. choochooochooo! ayun. ang saya.

My friends, why am i telling this? God is good! He has always been faithful to us. Sa lahat ng bagay, lagi Niyang ipinapakita ang kanyang kabutihan. Sa lahat ng bagay, magpasalamat. :) gaya ng footer ko tingin ka sa baba ng blogpage ko, nakalagay, in everything, give thanks. kahitna ndi namin nakuha ang 50k sa first prize, masaya pa rin. Out of 90 finalists, apat kaming napili at napunta sa akin bale ang highest prize. Cgro some of you might think that I'm nagmamayabang. Ofcorz not :) friends, I'm sharing to you these things as a testimony that God works in so many ways... in the most special way!!!!!! lagi. May text akong nabasa, and it goes like this pare: We may not understand God's plan for us. But friends, in His own perfect time, He'll let you see beautiful, wonderful and mazing things na talaga namang wow! wow wow wow Lord ang galing mo!!! :) I chatted with a friend kanina and she said parang walang nangyayari sa buhay nia. I advised her not to lean on her own strength for our strength is limited. But God's strength is neverending. Our good Lord is faithful and good... generous to give His hand and offer us help, if we just let go of our proud self... and let Him take control of everything :) Ang bait bait ni Lord sa akin. Grabe. Kahit nagkukulang na ako, andyan pa rin Siya pero may mga itinuturo Siyang bagay na dapat kong matutuhan. At nagyon, ipinakita Niya na kahit matigas ang ulo, mahal pa rin Niya ako at pinapalo para di magpatuloy sa katigasan ng ulo. Ibiniubuhos Niya ang umaapaw na biyaya sa kin para maunawaan kong dapat na akong bumalik sa kanyang pagkalinga at magseryoso. Para bang "Anak, kita mo naman, mahal na mahal kita... magbalik ka na. Hinihintay Kita." Awwww.... I should turn my back to temptations nitong mga nakaraang araw eh... mga impurities na nagpapagulo sa buhay ko. At katamarang maglingkod. :( Iminulat ako ng Diyos na kahit anong mangyari, tapat pa rin Siya. At ako ay grateful sa kanyang katapatan.

Dapat maging obedient na ako. Magserioso.

Nga pala, natuwa naman ako sa pic, tingnan mo pare... kita mo sila kahit walang braso, pinagyayaman ang talento... :)

Nakita ko si Dr. Habito ng NEDA at kasalukuyang director ng isang center sa Ateneo. Christian pala siya! ang galing! Ang talino niya.

JESUS YOU ARE SO GOOD! JESUS YOU ARE SO SO GOOD! AND I JUST WANT TO THANK THEE WITH EVERY BEAT OF MY HEART!

GOD IS GOOD! ALL THE TIME!

2006-05-25T20:57:00.001+07:00

ISANG MAAYOS NA BLOG... sana. hehe

Ang totoo nyan, i wanted to write an organized, well-thought and sensible post. But actually, I have some thoughts to develop but i just dunno where to start. Ewan. I want to write a blog that will make me realize that "oh! i still love writing and harmonize with words." Its been quite a while since I posted here a quite English-fluent and vocabulary rich blog.

I want to write as how I really write. Simple stuff that matters, that is and not lavishing my blog by decorating it with hifallutin words. Am i doing it now? Haha.
Mas astig yata pag normal ako magkuwento kasi its how aaron really writes. I write naturally! I write what i want and express myself through writing. Oh well, I want to say more stuff but I'm not well organized now, my thoughts rather. Baka mawalan ng magandang structure. Ciao ciao! beh :)

2006-05-23T21:35:00.000+07:00

ganda nito!

2006-05-23T18:00:00.000+07:00

ayos!!!!! hehe. di na ako magfafinals sa bio bukas. yung nga lang e... mababa ang grade ko sa bio dahil na nga sa aking hindi pagrereview nang maayos nuon. ok lang, lesson naman eh na next time e ilagay sa tamang lugar ang lahat ng mga bagay.

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh! Praise God! waaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!! sobrang saya! nakasama ako sa finalists ng essay writing competition sponsored by World Bank. Ang saya!!!!!!! and guess what? apat kami na finalists at ang 1st prize, 50k! lahat kami sure nang may bagong celphone!!!! waaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh!!!!!!! sobrang saya!!! GOD IS SO GREAT! Kinuwento ni mama na gusto niang magkaroon ng mas presentableng celphone ang brother ko!!!!!! ang saya binigay nga ni God. Ang saya!

True! kahit na may tine-take si God na mga bagay or kung minsan parang nakakapagtaka or nakakainis ang Lord (dahil di niya ibinibigay gusto natin) or minsan di lang natin maintindihan, di tayo dapat magtampo. God gives abundantly in His perfect time. He has every special and wonderful reason and purpose in everything and for everyone. Basta, maamaze ka na lang talaga. God is so good! His greatness is undescribable and incomprehendible ang kabutihan ni God! Nakakamaze talaga! Sarap ng feeling pag si God na ang nagdadrive sa life mo! smooth na smooth! ayos!

di ako nakapagwork-out sakit ng katawan ko. lalo na yung left arm ko. dati nafracture ito eh... baka bumalik kasi. bukas magwowork out uli ako. sana kayanin ko. hehe :)

napaliligiran ako ng mabubuting tao ngayon. One thing to be thankful for.

NagSM kami kanina.

Lakas ng ulan kanina.

God is good, all the time.

2006-05-22T17:42:00.000+07:00

medyo nanginginig pa ang mga kamay ko at nagkakamali mali ng letters na natatayp kasi kagagaling ko lang sa gym at nag-umpisa na akong magwork-out. whew!!!!!!!! graeb pare, nakakanginig nglaman at parang di ako masyado makagalaw. pero ayuz naman tsong kasi parang lumaki na biceps ko kahit first time pa lang ang saya! kailangan kong gawin kasi ito coz im dismayed na sa katawan ko. and i need to do sumthing to make this thin body a bit better. at mangyayari yun kahit mahirap!!!!! kailangan kong gumanda ang body! naks! macho :)) hahahahahahahhahaha... joke! di naman macho talaga. basta medyo gumanda ganda lang ang katawan ayos na. waaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!! sakit ng katawan pero i have this feeling of accomplishment and happiness naks!!!!!!!! hehe. oh well, naexcte lang ako.
tomorrow, kailangan ko pa pumunta UP tapos in the afternoon, I need to go to the gym again til wednesday yun tapos puedeng rest muna. On wednesday, we need to go to St>Charbel Clubhouse para icheck ang place for saturday's J-Light outdoor fellowship. For now, pahinga muna..... kaya ko toh!!!!!! hehe. God is great!!!!!!! :)

2006-05-22T00:35:00.000+07:00

lagay ko lang line-up kanina:

Opening: Siyasatin Mo Jesus
Welcome: Ikaw, Ako, Mahal Niya TAyo
Joyful: Everyday
I want To Know You More
Your Love Has Lifetd Me Again
Worship: Panginoon, Kaybuti Mo sa Akin
Mabuting Diyos
Dakilang Katapatan

Waaaah!!!!!!!!!! sa saturday na ang outdoor ng youth!

2006-05-20T22:46:00.000+07:00

Whoossssssh! Im here now. waaaaaaaaaaah! grabe may energy na uli ako, nakasinghot na ng katol! joke. Oh well, wen we got home (ako and mama) from Pedro Gil Manila after we met papa's friend friend to get a padala (o d b detailed talaga), talagang halos ubos na energy ko. I was really hungry but not feeling it much coz I was so tired. Grabe. This day has been a busy one. I will part these into 3 main points (ang pormal) para mas organized itong blog hehe. Okay:

a. I arrived late for our music practice, urgh! paano ba naman, di nagalaram ang phone ko tapos sumakit pa tyan ko at tila kaybagal ng mga jeep sa kalsada. So instead of getting there at 9, nandito pa ako ng mga sandaling iyon, nakarating ako sa church around 10:15 na yata. Urgh!!! :( tsk tsk tsk tsk. Unique Marco and Joshua were there and Seth came too. But he was not supposed to practice yata kasi wala yata siya tom (I'm checking kung anong date na, 11:53 na pala at maya maya lang or bukas ay May 21 na). Nagstart kami mageeleven na yata kasi nagayos pa sina Unique ng song sheets and all though I already gave the line-up. Okay naman at naayos ang practice. PRAISE GOD dahil kahit kulang kami ay naayos naman. Hopefully, pumunta ang mga dapat pumunta tom for the guitars! hehe... Woah! Glen! Seth sana tumugtog ka! wahaha! wala kasi Chito eh. so ayun... natapos kami around 2 kasi naglunch pa.

b. Sinamahan ko mama sa Pedro Gil to meet papa's friend dahil may padala. Pinakain kami sa Jollibee pero burger lang kinain ko. Nandun kami pass 3:30 eh at nakaalis kami dun around 5:30. ah! no!!!!!! mga 4 pala! Nagcommute lang kami from SM North to Pedro Gil e sumakay ng bus at LRT. Grabe yung pabalik na pare!!!!!! Sa LRT siksikan talaga!!!!!! Yung pangatlong train na nga hinintay namin puno pa rin so we just went in kahit talagang puno na. Grabe ngayon lang yata naranasan iyon. I thank God di ko madalas maranasan yun dahil bandang QC lang ang madalas kong nararating. Pagbalik sa bahay, grabe hehehehe... halos ubos na energia ko. Sa car pa lang nga nakatulog na ako. idlip... ayun...

c. and lastly, secret! hehehehehhehehe... maututlog na ko!!!!!!!!! 12:01 na at maaga pa kami tom for the practice. Maraming Salamat higit sa lahat sa Panginoon dahil He makes everything beautiful in His perfect time!!!!!!!!! :) at napalilibutan ako ng mabubuting tao :)

Praise God! o yeah! sarap talaga mabuhay! God is good all the time! good am na!!!!!!!!! heheheheh....

wait, astig to pare!!!!!! :) hehehehe... basta! God is great talaga!

2006-05-19T20:55:00.000+07:00

PRAISE GOD.

ganda ng araw ko...

ANG BALANSE SA LIPUNAN
Isang Tanaw sa Sama-samang Pag-unlad at Pagkakapantay-pantay

Tuwing ako'y napapadaan sa mga lugar na may matataas na gusali at magagandang tanggapan tulad ng sa Makati o sa Ortigas, aking nasasabi sa sarili, "Umuunlad na nga ang Pilipinas, umaahon na ang bansa." Pero matapos dumaan ang bus dito, makikita ko mula sa bintana ang mga batang gusgusin na namamalimos at ang batang nanay na nagpapasuso sa kanyang sanggol habang umiiyak ang isa pang anak sa tabi (at marahil walang padre de pamilya). Sa pagtanaw sa mga larawang ito, masasabi pa nga bang umuunlad ang Pilipinas?

Maliit na tanawin lang ito sa kahabaan ng EDSA o sa maraming bahagi ng Kamaynilaan. Paano pa kaya ang mga nasa kanayunan?

Ang distribusyon ng yaman sa bansa ay hindi pantay. Kung kaya, bagamat patuloy ang lokal at dayuhang pamumuhunan sa bansa ngunit hindi naman naibabahagi sa lahat ang mga yamang nakukuha mula sa mga ito sa pamamagitan ng mga buwis, hindi sabay-sabay ang kaunlaran. Ayon sa World Development Report 2006, kung sabay-sabay ang pag-unlad ng mga sektor ng lipunan, mas mabilis ang pag-usad ng ekonomiya at malaki ang posibilidad na maabot ang mas malaking kaunlaran. Sa kaso kasi ng Pilipinas, sadyang napakalaki ng agwat ng mga dukha sa nakaaangat sa lipunan. Ang isang pamilya, halimbawa, ay pinagkakasya ang isang instant noodles para sa sampung supling habang ang isang pamilya'y tig-iisa sa bawat instant noodles. Malaking pagkakaiba. Malaking agwat. At malaking hindi pagkakapantay. Hindi patas. Hindi balanse.
Ang pagsugpo sa hindi pagkakabalanse sa lipunan ay nangangailangan ng pagsugpo muna sa kahirapan. Nangangailangan ng komprehensibong reporma sa mga serbisyo kung saan mabibigyang tugon ang mga pangunahing hinaing ng mga mahihirap. Poverty reduction and alleviation ang nakikitang sagot ng pamahalaan dito. Sa mga programang ipinatutupad ng bawat administrasyon sa anyo ng Social Reform Agenda, Erap para sa Mahirap, Kapit Bisig Laban sa Kahirapan, iisa ang layunin ng pamahalaan, ang mabawasan at tuluyang sugpuin ang pinapasan ng mga maralita. Tinitignan ng programa kung paano mabibigyan ng magandang kabuhayan ang mga nasa kanayunan, maparami ang mga trabaho para sa karaniwang mamamayan, at mabigyan ng sapat na suporta ang kababaihan at kabataan.
Sa edukasyon, halimbawa, may mga mahihirap na estudyanteng may sapat na talino subalit hindi nabibigyan ng pagkakataong makapag-aral nang maayos dahil sa kakulangan sa materyal sa pag-aaral, pamasahe, at ang hindi pagkakatutok ng guro sa mga aralin para sa bawat estudyante dahil sa malaking populasyon sa klasrum (karaniwan sa pampublikong paaralan ay may 1 guro para sa 75 estudyante). Kung may sapat na serbisyong pangkalusugan, makapagtatrabaho nang mahusay ang magulang sa halip na mahirata sa banig ng karamdaman o kaya'y alagaan ang maysakit na anak.
Kung laging ganito ang hinaharap ng mahihirap araw-araw habang abala ang pamahalaan sa pagpapalago ng ekonomiya sa macroekonomikong perspektibo, hindi nagtatagpo ang kalagayan ng magkabilang panig. Naiiwan pa rin ang mahihirap sa buntot ng kaunlaran.
Sa ganang ito, maaaring maibuod sa tatlong pangunahing lansangan ng kawalan ng balanse ang karanasan ng Pilipinas sa usapin ng pag-unlad at pagkakapantay-pantay: aspetong politikal, ekonomiko at sosyo-kultural.

Politikal ito dahil ang mga layunin, polisiya, plano, programa at mga proyektong pangkaunlaran ng pamahalaan ay ang mga pangunahing nagsasagwan sa bangka ng bansa. Ang taumbayan ay handang sumagwan pero may ilang hindi sumasabay sa kumpas ng namumuno dahil sinusunod ang makasariling pananaw. Dahil dito, hindi nababalanse ang pagsasagwan kaya hindi umuusad o kung umuusad man ang bangka, ubod ng bagal. Sa ganitong bagay, kailangan ng matibay na paninindigan sa politika- paninindigang ang pamunuan sa bansa ay hindi isang pook ng pag-aangkin kundi pagbibigay at pagmamalasakit. Ang puwesto sa pamahalaan ay dapat maging luklukan ng mga taong may pag-unawa sa kalagayan ng mahihirap at sinserong maglingkod.
Sa aspetong ekonomiko, natitipon ang yaman ng bansa sa sentro gaya ng Kamaynilaan, at mga karatig-pook nito habang ang mga nasa lalawigan ay hindi nabibigyan ng tamang suporta. Ang ilang lungsod gaya ng Cebu at Davao ay panakanakang nakikitaan din ng asenso pero ang mga lalawigang karatig nito ay nanatiling mahihirap. Sa mga nakatala sa Philippine Human Development Report mula 1994 hanggang 2004, kapansin-pansing ang mga pinakamahihirap na lalawigan ay yaong nasa Silangang Kabisayaan, Bikol, at mga bahagi sa Mindanao. Agrikultura at pangingisda ang karaniwang kabuhayan ng mga tao dito pero kung kapos pa ang suporta, paano pa sila makakaahon?
Malaki ang di pagkakapantay-pantay sa sosyo-kultural na usapin. Sa maraming bahagi ng bansa, kalunsuran man o kanayunan , namamayani ang diskriminasyon sa katayuan sa buhay, pinagmulang pamilya, 'di pagkakaroon ng kapantayan sa pagtingin sa kasarian, mga katutubong nakararanas ng diskriminasyon sa edukasyon, larangan, hanapbuhay at iba pa. Kung hindi nahahasa o mas malala, hindi nabibigyan ng pagkakataong umunlad ang lakas paggawa, paano aabante ang ekonomiya?

Hindi lamang simpleng equality o pagkakapantay-pantay ng distribusyon ang kailangan para umasenso ang bansa. Higit na mahalaga ang equity o ang pagtingin ng mamamayan sa kung ano ang patas. Pareho itong mahalaga upang makamit ang inaasam na progreso.

Sa isang rowing team, mahalaga ang lakas ng braso ng mga nagsasagwan pero higit na kailangan ng sama-sama at sabay-sabay na pagkilos upang bumilis ang bangka.
Pero may malaking suliranin: marami ang nagsasagwan pero hindi pantay ang lakas ng mga ito. Ang ilan ay malakas habang ang iba ay naaagawan pa ng lakas. Paano pa uusad ang bangka? Dapat ay patas ang lakas na natatanggap ng bawat kasapi ng team o lupon. Kailangan ng determinasyon ng nangunguna at balanse para sa mga nagsasagwan.
Sa pag-aaral naman ng bisikleta, hindi ka matututo kung hindi mo kayang timplahin ang bigat o gaan ng katawan lalo na ng mga paa sa pagpepedal. Kailangang may balanse para umandar ito.
Sama-samang paggawa, sabay-sabay na pagkilos, harmonya, pagtutulungan, kooperasyon, balanse at higit sa lahat, direksyon, pokus at determinasyong magawa ang dapat gawin- ang mga ito ang siyang layunin ngayon at dapat pag-ibayuhin pa ng pamahalaan lalo na ng namumuno.

Isang araw, nakangiti na ang mga bata sa lansangan at hindi na gusgusin.
May sapat nang pagkain sa mesa ang bawat pamilyang Pilipino.

Uusad din ang bangka natin.

Pagpalain nawa ng Diyos ang ating bayan.

2006-05-18T15:33:00.000+07:00

Praise God! Kita mo nga naman, pag nag-aaral, e di madali lang ang exam! hehe. Im not boasting. My point here is this: if you persevere, a good thing would certainly happen as a result of that virtue. But if you just lie down there and do nothing but chat or daydreaming instead of doing your task, expecta consequence. The same goes with our deeds before God. If we do serve him faithfully and wholeheartedly and humbly obey Him, He is just and faithful to reward you. If u r such a coward dude, fearing (in a negative sense) everything and cant even step forward, and not obedient to God, what would you expect? Great life? Corz not. God won't tolerate the wrongdoings of His children. At kahit na pinapalo pa tayo ni God, iyon e para mareceive natin ang pagpapala.Wahh! natatamaan na yata ako in some aspects :), pero kasi this is true in our lives naman eh. God is just. He knows all. he knows our deeds. He knows our hearts.

Kanina, we had our 2nd exam in Biology. Nyeks! kahapon, ginawa ko yung paper tapos di naman pala ipapasa kasi inextend! hehe. ok lang at least irerevise ko na lang. In everything, give thanks nga di ba. Salamat pa rin kay God at may nasimulan na ako. Konting punas na lang. Ayun, tapos nagreview ako nung gabi til mga 1am yata. Kaninang umaga, i was so sleepy na naman pero talagang pinilit kong mag-aral hanggang bago ko kunin yung exam sheet, nagreview uli ako sa labas ng auditorium. Ayun, praise God at ayus! hehehehe :) Bunga ng pagsisikap at prayers. Faith without works is dead.

Whats my point here? We should be thankful that God teaches us big lessons in life through small instances pa lang so when big duaduariuaphz come, ready na tayo at di na tayo papetikpetiks sa mga bagay-bagay. Reader, God wants the best for us! :) Only the best.

2006-05-18T12:06:00.000+07:00

Start with your own circle of influence. It’s not weakness starting small. Jesus changed the world, and He did it with twelve.
-mula sa blogpage ni jo. :)

2006-05-17T13:54:00.000+07:00

Magandang araw. We didnt meet today in both of my classes. This time is alloted for us to prepare for our papers and exams due tom and on friday. Sa ngayon, nagblog lang ako and in a while, i'll start to do my paper in biology. and tonyt, i'll review naman for our exam tomorrow. Woooh! very hectic pero wag lang dapat magcram. urgh! nakakainis talaga pag nagkacram na ako. so eto na lang muna... wait, here are 7 things i want to do now if only i can....
magbike
magscuba
magparachute
maghike
magswimming sa ilog o sa dagat
magpiano
kumanta with an orchestra

owel... hehe fantasize muna. for now, i must face my tasks!!!!!! magsipag na!!! heheheh

2006-05-16T19:22:00.000+07:00

haaay... im yawning. i was supposed to write sumthing here. anyway...
here are some stuff i wanna do or have hehe:

a bicycle
good grades in my summer classes
a girlfriend (wahahahahahahaha)
a band
a new shirt
a concert
to watch an orchestra
to play the guitar or piano hehe
finish my papers and exams

2006-05-15T22:42:00.000+07:00

"For everything there is a season and a time for every purpose under heaven. A time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to pluck that which you have planted..." Ecc. 3:1-2

2006-05-14T18:29:00.000+07:00

I am desperately and overly bored here. Oh well, am i really a homebody if I feel this boredom? I said to myself I'm a homebud but look aaron, wazzapenin to ya! You wanna go out and have some fun! Go to gimmicks and come home late. Enjoy your teeny age when in fact your not a teenager at all. Hahaha. Sayang. Your sober demeanor is being mixed now with a tick for adventure. In a way, that may be a nice thing for a guy who always keeps himself kinda isolated from the rest of the giggletz. Be jolly! Though I know I am! O yes I'm talking to myself now. This behavior bodes curiosity of myself. Am i becoming mature now? Am i shifting to a road or a bridge crossing adulthood. Yes, aaron. A new place waits for you. Walk courageously and gain all strength from God for you to be able to walk through this long and winding journey (naks! parang kanta ah! hehe). Hold your head up high and look straight forward. Ahead of you is a beautiful paradise! If only you get to know how to obey your Master for He will never tolerate your wrongdoings. You could have gotten those big opportunities if u werent disobedient and murmuring of hardships. Have faith! Never give up! Keep thy faith in God! For your works are not in vain when u do it for thy Master.

Hey, In everything, give thanks.
Do it all for the glory of God.
Astig ka pare pag di ikaw ang nasusnod sa sarili mo. Kaya mo yan. Kasama mo si God eh.

Tara aaron, get up now ok?move on. Do something GREAT! alam mo na yun!

2006-05-14T16:10:00.000+07:00

Mother's Day
sa wakas natutuhan ko rin maglagay ng links!!!!!!! after 2 months. hahahah! yun lang. Happy Mother's Day! Sasali rin sana ako ng Campus Crusade for Christ mukhang masaya din. WWWWWWWaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! simutin ang natitirang mga araw sa unibersidad. Wahahaahha. Nakakinip walang tao sa ym. Oh well... :) ganda ng weather.

2006-05-13T20:54:00.000+07:00

itong pusa, tumutugtog ng gitara, ako gusto ko matuto pero di nag-aaral, parang ang hirap kasi. sana magawa ko ring matuto, at para mangyari yun, mag-aral!!!!!!

2006-05-13T20:38:00.000+07:00

"I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me - the task of testifying to God's grace." Acts 20:24

2006-05-13T20:09:00.000+07:00

haaay... honestly, im abit bored. we had a drive to fetch ariel from church around 3 or 4pm yata. They had music practice. Arian is still not home. They went to SM after the DVBS-Bayan. And kanina, ang haba ng brownout at ngayon, kanina pa ako nakaharap sa monitor at nagbobrowse ng friendster, blogs etc... dapat nga ay nagaayos na ako sa CRS pero woah!!!! parang wala pa rin akong ginagawa. Pero aayusin ko rin yun. Sa ngayon, malamig ang panahon. Not the type na giginawin ka na pero mahangin kasi. Signal no. 1 na kasi. Nung isang linggo lang ang init init tapos ngayon... whooosh!!!!!!!! bagyo hehe. oh well, yun na muna. I still dont know how to add links sa blog ko. Basta matutuhan ko yun... :)

2006-05-12T23:13:00.000+07:00

who compares to You? You who created the sun, the stars, and all the universe? even the dust, You created it. Oh God, how awesome is Your Name! Your power, majesty and greatness are incomparable and incomprehendible.

2006-05-12T22:53:00.000+07:00

Dont worry about anything, but in all your prayers ask God for what you need, always asking him with a thankful heart. And God's peace, which is far beyond human understanding, will keep your hearts and minds safe in union with Christ Jesus. In conclusion, my friends, fill your minds with those things that are good and that deserve praise: things that are true, noble, right, pure, lovely and honorable. Put into practice what you learned and received from me, both from my words and from my actions. And the God who gives peace will be with you. Philippians 4:6-9.

2006-05-12T22:29:00.000+07:00

what is life all about. warning, the next sentences might be too weird for u for this blog is kinda deconstructive. I'll just write whatever i think. Oh, i wanna go to Plawan or somewhere in the Visayas? hey why am i so grammar conscious... ewan ko ba. owel, gusto ko talaga sumali sa dalawang Christian org sa UP ngayong darating na semsetre. So ano ba ang mahalaga sa buhay? kayamanan? karangalan? katanyagan? kaibigan? lahat na mawala, huwag lang pag-ibig for love is the reason why were created, the reason why we live, the catalyst for inspiration and all. Actually, we are created to worship. Yun yun. And we cant worship if don't have love for God. korek! gyusto ko ng jacket. yung color blue at white at gusto kong magkaroon ng magandang classmate next sem at tatabihan ko at liligawan ko na at nang magkalovelife na ako. Nitong linggo lamang, aking nabasa na ang pag0ibig ay hindi dapat hanapin. Ito ay kusang darating. Ano ba ang silbi ng Marxist structural model. Bakit ba napakalaking isyu nyan! pati ang its complicated sa friendster. at bakit ba adik na adik ang ibang tao sa jologs world ng friendster! at bakit lifestyle na ng mga Pilipino ang TV. Gusto ko talaga sumama sa LCDC Camp. Pero i want to join a mission trip pala. Batsa gusto kong lalong magsilbi una kay God, above all siempre sa MAster ko. Tama! at siempre neighbors. I want to help my fellow people to let them know and understand that there is more to life than fame and richness, glory and all. Indeed, love surpasses all. In love, we live. For Christ is love and given as a gift for us, again, with that incomparable, incomprehendible(is there such a word, ayan nagiging grammar conscious na naman ako, urgh!) and unconditional love. Haay... sarap mabuhay if u are inspired. I am a bit worried of the coming smester. I'll be officially starting my thesis and i'll be having two major cognates and some GEs pa.

2006-05-12T21:00:00.000+07:00

Praise God. T'was actually a nice day. The weather is so nice kahit ngayon. lamig. not really so malamig. but really relaxing like ud feel sleepy at times. so relaxing. But one thing that really disappoints me is my exam earlier in Natsci 2. It was partly my fault. I had a lot of time to review but i spent my time chatting. I woke up late coz i really was so sleepy. Mama drove me to Greenfields kasi nga male-late na ako for the exam. I was supposed to review while I was in the jeep but midway head to UP, i felt so sleepy talaga. and it was already 9am and nasa Tandang Sora or Central pa lang yata ako e 9 ang exam. The weather was cloudy and it it made me even sleepier. haha. pero masarap ang weather. lasang pansit wahahah. nye! corny. I got into the CS auditorium around 9:15 or later, tama lang kasi nagbibigay pa lang ng exam sheets. haaay... sad pa rin. Ang dali ng exam but i didnt review much so as a result, ayun.... :( haaay... this is a huge lesson for me. Owel, i keep thanking God for this very beautiful day. Sobra relaxing talaga. I think, nagsimula na ang tag-ulan. Umuulan na kanina kahit nung naggabi na. Waaah... relax. Yeah, God is good, He's so good to me :) and to you.

2006-05-11T20:37:00.000+07:00

hello! yesterday, it rained. i think that was the first downpour of May. it has been so long since it rained that much. di naman masyado malakas pero at least, summerheat somehow ay nabawasan. Cool breeze took its place for a while naman and i think this will continue na. wow! sarap ng tag-ulan hehe. MAy 10! unang ulan ng mayo as far as i remember. Kanina, nagpresent ang group sa STS. And at last, i was welcomed by SVCF. Theyre nice. The first people i met were Caleb, Chito or Gerald, Eugene whom i met during the JZone team building, Barbie, Faith whom i chatted with yesterday and encouraged me to join (she was so nice pala), Bianca, Feona, Migs, Miko, Elain, Kaye and sino pa ba, sila pa lang yata. I'll stop here. I have to review for my exam tomorrow in Natsci 2 bio portion na. God is good all the time! :)

2006-05-10T09:01:00.000+07:00

THE PIMPLES CRISIS IS OVER. Though there are still some butligs sa forehead ko, happy na ako that my pimples are disappearing na (disappearing talaga) tuwing umagang gumigising ako. My days are becoming nicer kasi i dont get irritated that much wenever i look at the morror and see those pimples getting worse. Now, they're leaving my face. Sige mag-alisan na kayo mga pimples! waaahhH! at nang ok na rin ang pagmumukha ko. hehe. mga kababayan, ang krisis sa pimples ay tapos na. Bumalik na sa kaayusan ang ating lipunan. corny. ako pa!

2006-05-04T15:46:00.000+07:00

im eating. rice, chicken, siomai (kanina) ubos na and rice. tapos ang pavorito kong cappuccino shake. enjoy

2006-04-30T12:14:00.000+07:00

the UP Concert Chorus is abroad now for the tour. If i didnt quit after 5 months of training, most probably, kasama rin ako sa world tour covering the uS, Europe, New Zealand and Asia. Now, do i regret? NO. I know everything has a reason. I can still rememeber that night in greenbelt when di ko sinsadya, dun ako napunta sa puesto ni Rey sa blocking ng sayaw. after that performance, rey said those urgh! words to me and tricia. Hindi ko papayagang murahin ako dahil lamang sa isang pagkakamali sa isang performance. After five months, that night, i said to myself, i decided na magqui-quit ako! and i did! at walang pagsisisi. at bagamat lagi akong umaattend ng trainings noon kahit wala akong pasok, ok lang dahil marami akong natutuhang bagay. Hindi na ako galit kay Rey ngayon. Naalala ko pa rin ang ginawa niya pero dapat nang liumutin ang ano mang sama ng loob. I have to let go and forgive.
Kagagaling lang namin sa church. walang youth fellowship program ngayon kaya dito lang ako sa house. rest and sleep cgro. tapos bukas swimming! may baptism kasi :) ciao!

2006-04-29T21:02:00.000+07:00

pasensiya na kung sa tingin nyo poy akoy isang supladong mama. wala akong ikasusuplado. tahik lang talaga ako. i see myself as an introvert though im trying to be more malapit to veryone as much as i can. i know that communication is important. im still trying to adjust. di lang kasi ako masyado approachable dahil mukha daw akong suplado. bakit nga ba!!!!!!!! hahaha. pero ang totoo, pag nagkausap na tayo, malamang maging close tayo. di kasi ako yung tipong nagsasalita agad at kakausapin ka hanggat di mo ko kinakausap. mejo natatakot kasi ako sa rejection. pero anong dapat ikatakot sa rejection? even Jesus was rejected di ba? natatakot kasi akong sungitan ng ibang tao or maliitin. pero mali. I have a big God. I am an heir. I have so many things to share. at wala akong dapat ikahiya di ba? teka kung saan saan na ako napunta! hehe... pero bakit nga ba maraming nagsasabing mukha akong suplado!!!!!!!! waahhhh!!!!!!!!!! hindi lang cgro ako palangiti sa mga taong di ko kilala. e kumusta naman kung ngingitian ko lahat ng tao, di naman kaya magmukha akong smileyman! wahahaha!!!!!! anyweiz, ang dami ko na talagang pimples. as in. huhuhu... gta go now. i have to rest early. Tomorrow, we'll attend the morning sunday worship service and after that, may youth fellowhip naman.
nga pala, pasensya na kung mukha akong suplado ah. gagawin ko ang kahat para magmukhang mas approachable.

2006-04-29T20:31:00.000+07:00

sa lilim ng Iyong pag-ibig
ako ay kukubli
sa payapang yakap
ako'y ligtas
di maarok na kaligayahan
aking nadarama
pag sa Iyo nang kalinga
wala na ngang iisipin pa

2006-04-29T15:52:00.000+07:00

kamusta naman yun! while im typing this blog, im eating refrigerated cake aka tiramizu and sipping a cappuccino shake. talap! kamusta yun, dami ko nang pimples tapos ang mga ganito pa ang kinakain ko. hahaha!!!!!! ok lang. hehe talap talap naman e. hehe. haaay... relaxing day. i was supposed to attend dvbs kanina e kaso tinanghali na rin ako so ayun... dito lang ako sa house all day. Haay... sarap ng buhay. God is good :)

2006-04-28T15:17:00.000+07:00

here i go... it was scorching hot outside! everytime i go to school for my summer classes, i always get a bath of sweat, libre yun haha! and i always have to wash my face first before i get in to our room coz dust might worsen my pimples! urgh! hot climate! dusty fields... metro manila..... thats y i wanna go to new zealand. hehe... gusto ko pumunta sa NZ!!!!!! hehe. anyweiz, today's a friday! wooh!!! i think im gonna ttend dawnwatch tomorrow and after that, we might go to Holy Cross with my co-JLighters, youth peeps to jog perhaps hehe... and then after that, well go back to the church and attend the church's Daily Vacation Bible School. I wasnt able to teach this time coz i have summer classes nga. Yesterday, we went to midweek service naman. On Sunday, ooohh! may YOuth Fellowship. On monday! ooohhh! may baptism! and swimming!!!!!! weeeehhh.... But this scorching hot weather worries me that i might not enjoy swimming that much kasi i have lots of pimples na nga, mangingitim pa ko! waaaaahhh!!!!!!! miss ko na porcelain skin! hehe.

NEVER GIVE UP

I guess it’s over.

Upon This Rock

by Sandi Patti

album: Finest Moments (1990), More Than Wonderful (1991)

album: Finest Moments (1990),
More Than Wonderful (1991)